it's been a while my love . . .

CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012

2012-02-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

I think I received quite an amount of angbao this year. Gonna bank them in on Tues. So... here are the CNY's pic. Not much because as usual, I'm not a very take-picture-everywhere kinda person.

So anyway, as usual every CNY Day 1 I will go to my father's side with my brothers. Since my father is no longer around, I go with them alone. Ever since my father passed away actually.

My 2nd elder brother.

the one in red is my eldest brother. or rather. our eldest brother. lol. Is there actually any resemblance? Or the age gap too big cannot see anymore?

while waiting for my mother to pick me up cause I lost my way -.- I THINK I LOOK QUITE PRETTY THIS CNY LEH! HAHAHAHAHAA. A lot of compliments this year leh, as compared to previous years. Maybe I become more chio hor? HAHAHAHAHA.

So anyway, CNY visiting usually lasts a few days for me in previous years, but I did my last visiting only like 2 days back. which is the 12th day. Happening ah.

Wenr my nephew (my eldest brother's eldest son), Andrew's house. Brought bf along and we played 21 there. Their daughter is just adorable. SUPER CUTE.

my Da Sao, Andrew's daughter, Claire and my brother. This is the first time I see my brother smile in photos. LOL. He's quite a cool guy for his age (50+) but he doesn't smile much.

I can't remember which day was that but that week's friday we went my Eldest brother's house. Another house party. Played mahjong, 21 and drank quite some bit of beer. lol. I think I grew to like beer because of the two days of drinking beer.

And because of that, I decided to go drink w Gina. Since she's probably very trained from drinking in Aussie alr.

we got ourselves a tower! Can you believe it we finished a tower. 2 girls at some really uncle place with people singing ktv songs in a very horrible way in the background. Kenrick intro-ed me that place and I decided we just needed beer and to chill so we went there. I do know that it's quite an uncle place from the start, but the singings there that day was just terrible. really bad.

Went to my guardian's place for the last visiting on the 12th day, a friday. So I stayed there till the bf came over to fetch me. I was dressed in black despite it being a CNY visit, but I thought that it's not the first 3 days anymore, I didn't really bother about the color anymore.

yeah tt was my outfit. and yes, tt's my guardian's house. HAHA. Like extremely narcissistic like that, go people's house use their mirror to take photo of myself. OH WELL?!

Finally got Gina to meet the bf and we just had an awesome time together. I know it's not very CNY-ish but it happened during CNY so yeah. We were just chilling, having wine. 2 bottles of wine in 1 hr plus. Super super high. It was damn fun and we're gonna do it again this sat! YAY! Can't wait.

Driving lesson tmr!

I haven't gotten the ftt book because Gina forgot to bring it out tt ytd. My instructor is going to say me. I know nothing and he kept asking questions I just guessed. LOL. I felt damn retarded seriously.

Abrupt ending cause I ran out of things to say. bye.

LOADING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO VERY SLOWLY. ):

2012-01-30T19:33:00.002+08:00

I haven't been touching my laptop for many days. Except for yesterday when I blogged. Ever since I started Uni, the laptop became a tool for assignments much more than entertainment. Although I still download (GASP!! SOPA SHIT STARTS FORMING IN MY HEAD AT THE MENTION OF THE WORD 'DOWNLOAD') shows or songs once in a while, my laptop is pretty much a work tool more than anything else.

I guess I just associate work with laptop so it's not as appealing anymore to even on it. I do, however, realize that I use the computer much more at the bf''s. That's basically weekends. I guess not my laptop that's why I don't associate to work? I don't know, maybe it's just me. Since the start of study period, before exams, the laptop became pretty useless. Literally. It's just left there lying ON THE FLOOR, 3/4 hidden under my bed.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
No idea why I decided to put it under the bed and at the spot where if I get off the bed, my feet will be stepping on. That to say, I've stepped on my laptop several times, especially in the middle of the night in the past 3 weeks or so. :x

So since now I'm not working and it's HOLIDAY for me, I've resumed the laptop to it's rightful and appropriate position, on the table. hehe. So it's messing ard with the webcam. I pretty much use it as a mirror when I need to check out that zit on my face and I'm lazy to take 4 steps to the toilet. I think I'm going to grow fat. Maybe a butt bigger than it already is. Maybe I have a big butt because I sit down too much. Hor?

plus my snacking... YEP. DEFINITELY GOING TO BECOME FATTER....

BF!!! DO YOU STILL WANT ME??!

Now it's time for me to catch up on my shows! Fringe S4 and The Vampire Diaries S3. Had to download a few eps at one go because I haven't been tracking when each ep is being released. I'm fine with downloading but when I download a few eps at a time, I expect the older ep to be done downloading than the newer ones! Makes sense right? If the new eps are done downloading, I can't watch anyway because I won't be able to catch up with the story. And that is exactly what is happening right now. TVD's ep12 is done, but 11 is not and it's BEEN ONE WHOLE DAY. I've been waiting and waiting checking every few hours, BUT WHY SO SLOW?! The rest of the eps including Fringe's eps are done and I'm even done watching Fringe. -.- SO DAMN SLOW. TSK.

Every few hrs I look it tells me ETA 1hr.

ok 10min to go! DAMON SALVATORE HERE I COME!!!!!!

I AM LAZY.

2012-01-29T23:15:00.001+08:00

So exams are finally over. I'm a bit slow to announce since it was over the week before CNY, but yeah CNY's been pretty busy for me this year. In fact, this is the busiest CNY I've ever had.

Sad to say, I have yet to get my driver's license -.- I've been telling myself to get my license by 'next year's' CNY every year since I hit 18. AND GUESS WHAT? I'M TURNING 21 SOON (in June) AND I'VE YET TO START LEARNING! OH MY GAWD. I AM A PROCRASTINATOR. z z z.

BUT!!! I HAVE PASSED MY BTT, just this year sadly and I am currently starting practical lessons soon. Just that, I haven texted the instructor yet (I have an instructor's number already). MORE PROCRASTINATION. I'm going to do it tomorrow. I SWEAR. It's too late to text an instructor now anyway. I don't feel good texting teachers / instructors of any kind after the sun sets. I always think they need to get away from their work and enjoy their personal time after the sun sets. So yeap, I'm going to do it tomorrow.

So anyway, since exams are over, I have about a month's time of holiday before the next semester starts, I am expected to work. My boyfriend expects and wants me to work. My mother expects and wants me to work. I expect and wanted myself to work....

ON SECOND THOUGHTS, I'm hesitating. You can say I'm lazy, maybe I'm really lazy, BUT IT'S MY HOLIDAY! WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING ENJOY MY SHORT 1 MONTH HOLIDAY?! Sure you might say all you working adults have no holidays also not tired yada yada blahlahleedah. I'm going to work FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AFTER GRADUATION, WHY WORK NOW?! WHY CAN'T I ENJOY MY HOLIDAY WHILE I STILL HAVE IT?

I know working will earn me some extra bucks, but a few hundred dollars, probably near 200 not very significant leh. Even though the boyfriend and I are saving for our bkk trip at the end of the year, I still don't feel like working! I just want to enjoy my holiday, even if I laze around, grow fat, grow a tummy, become a couch potato, when my sem starts, I AM ONE HARDWORKING GIRL AGAIN!
Mind you, when I say hardworking, I'm really very hardworking. I study almost all the time except weekends, I try not to leave assignments till the night before it's due etc. I become a nerd basically. If I'm working hard during school term, shouldn't I enjoy during my break? IT'S CALLED A BREAK / HOLIDAY FOR A REASON!!! You ENJOY, you RELAX, you REST YOUR MIND (& SOUL) during a HOLIFUCKINGDAY.

YOU DO NOT GO TO WORK.

For adults, they have off-days or leaves to take. Then, why not during your off day or leave you don't go on a holiday or break and WORK instead? NO ONE DOES THAT RIGHT? Likewise for schooling people! At least for me! I WANT TO RELAX AND ENJOY MY HOLIDAY!

Like I said earlier on, I'M GOING TO WORK FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AFTER GRADUATION, I should enjoy while I still can.

I REPEAT: WORK FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

I read this article not too long ago about the Top 10 regrets people have just before they die as reported by a nurse who works with dying patients, mostly really old people. I think quite some people read it before, there was a link to it floating around twitter and facebook. Most of the regrets were people working too hard, didn't enjoy life enough, didn't slow down to enjoy the small bits of lives, or spend enough time with their loved ones.

Okay... the last one don't really apply to me because anyway there's no one at home during the day and my boyfriend's in camp.

BUT STILL, ENJOY WHILE I STILL CAN! My holiday is only ONE MONTH. If it's 3 months I must agree I do need to work, but it's only 4 weeks before I start working real hard again.

Of course I'm not going to grow fat, be a couch potato literally. I'll still head to the gym (maybe) or swim and head out of course.

That's it. I think I'm not going to work.

and I'm going to prepare myself for a whole lot of nagging.

Yes. Nagging.

ON A SIDE NOTE, I CAN'T PLAY THE SIMS! Mine is still THE SIMS2, because I have no money to purchase The Sims3 and I will not do so because I think it's a waste of money to buy games. The Sims2 was given to me by a friend so yeah.

Sigh why?!?!?! It keeps giving me some error message, I can't read it cause it's in thai, I tried to change the language but I can't because I can't find the EA Games folder in Regedit. OMG WHY?! It's done installing, I've installed the patch too and when I open the game up, even if it's in thai I should be able to play, but I can't! The page after all the loading pages is blank. There's no neighbourhood for me to select to start. So I CAN'T START. -.-

LE SIGH.

Someone help. PLEASE!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! or not.

2012-01-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

So what if it's a new year? It's just another day!! Just that it starts with 01 01, doesn't mean everything becomes perfect from then on.

Life goes on. People still die, the shit goes on the good goes on. Nothing stops for time.

So anyway, I'm not excited about the new year.

I AM NOW HOWEVER, PISSED WITH MY FAMILY.
I WANNA GET OUT. ASAP.

I'M KIASU. I BET YOU ARE TOO.

2011-11-29T21:34:00.001+08:00

One of the many many many things I hate is my pen running out of ink while I'm writing. So disgusting! Write halfway then the ink fades off like act cool gradient shit. THAT'S NOT COOL, PEN! It annoys the crap out of me, especially when I don't have that color of pen with me and if I borrow someone else's pen, the ink the thickness of th ballpoint will be different! Everything will look out of place. and that, ANNOYS ME, BIG TIME.

see the white circle, where the ink fades off. SO ANNOYING!

red circle, where I'm still in denial and believes my pen will still serve me -.-

It was stats lesson, I didn't want to miss out, so I forced myself to use the black pen I have with me. It was an eyesore to use and I hated it because the rest of my answers are in blue, only diagrams and other special areas I use black. Yes, I am that anal about the color of my pen being used for which section, which area of my own notes. EXTREMELY PARTICULAR. If I use the wrong color, I'll be in a foul mood. Lol. I know I sound a bit too extreme BUT I REALLY DON'T LIKE! Makes everything not the same anymore!!! ):

Apparently the school bookshop doesn't sell my pen's ink refill or my pen itself. It's the pilot acroball medium tip one. It is DAMN SMOOTH. I had to borrow my friend's pen for th lecture afterwards because

BLACK IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE USED FOR NOTES.

And.....

I DIDN'T LIKE IT! I appreciate the fact that he even lend me his pen because he was using pencil and black pen. I felt terrible that he's using black pen, he probably doesnt care what color are his writings in lecture notes but I feel for him k.

I didn't like his pen cause it wasn't smooth enough and the tip damn thin. Makes my writings look so sparse, thin and pathetic. Those who like 0.7 / medim tip ballpoint pens will understand my feelings, but what can I do? I'm making the best out of it because I would really hate to see my writings in black when I revise my notes. So I rather 先苦后甜 (I know not that serious but, I'M PARTICULAR LIKE THAT)

So anyway, no more pen, school don't sell my pen, I went to get it after school. I couldn't remember if AMK Hub has popular, so I walked the whole mall -.- Apparently there isn't so I went to Fairprice opposite my house to get one pen. ONE PEN. I wanted to get just one pen to last till I get th pen I really wanted.

One big round and that brings me to the title of this post. I wanted to buy ONE pen but look what I ended up with......

5 pens and a facial cleanser. ;x It was supposed to be a trip to Fairprice that would cost me only I think $1.50, but it became $22.00 HAHAHAHAHHA.

Am I kiasu or what?! I actually laughed to and at myself after paying. WHY I SO RIDICULOUS? LOL. ONE pen became FIVE. -.-

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I think her logic's gone. Her son wanted to say bye / goodnight to me and give me a hug when going to bed and he was already at my door about to turn the door knob already (as I heard), she actually said "no need, no need" in a very frustrated voice. She knows there's nothing wrong in what the son wanted to do, but she didn't want her son to do that because of her relationship with me this one month. She's lucky the son still young cannot fight back ask why. I assumed she pulled her son away from my door immediately because I saw the shadows disappear under my door immediately after she said 'no need'.

WAY TO GO IN CULTIVATING AND NURTURING GOOD MANNERS AND HABITS. 2x thumbs up.

Even I know nothing to do with her son, I still play with him and entertain him.

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Anyway, I need to share my current obsession, but I know it's a very temporary one. Yeah, my penguin. HHAHAHAHHAHAA.

ok I'm done.

No more photos of penguin. I promise. AHAHAHAHHA.

BUT ADMIT IT. THE LAST ONE DAMN CUTE PLS!

HAPPY FEET!!

2011-11-27T19:06:00.001+08:00

Little Eric is sooooooooo cute. If only he's real. I want to have him! So fluffy, the voice so adorable too!
And guess what I bought the Happy feet combo for the movie. It was damn shit load of things. 2 packs of small twisties, 1 mini ice-cream, 1 large popcorn and 1 large drink. Lavone and I had difficulty carrying everything. hahahahaha.

Waiting for her to upload the photos so I can kope. Meanwhile....

OKAY BYEBYE.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT A DOG.

2011-11-23T13:45:00.001+08:00

I used to have a dog as some people do know. No wait, I used to have 2 dogs. One was given to me by my cousin cause he could no longer take care of it or his then gf couldn't take care of it anymore.

that's dingding

and this is furby. I have no idea why is the photo so small. I retrieved it from the album I have in photobucket.

I dreamt about owning a dog once again last night. On average, I'll dream of having my dog mostly Dingding back with me about 3-4x a month. I really miss having a dog.

I remember always pretending that I'm walking my dog when I was younger. I'd walk around my neighbourhood w my hand behind me as though I was holding on the the leash and my dog was behind me. I'd even talk to the imaginery dog I have. Oh, and the dreams started ever since I have episodic memory. That's like when I was 4 years old? The dreams stopped briefly during the period when I had dogs. P5 - Sec 1 or 2. Then Sec 4 - Poly yr 1.5. They were always taken away from me without my prior knowledge or permission.

The very first time Snobby (my very first dog) was taken away, it was understandable cause my Dad went through operation and my family was afraid that the dog would cause infection to his wound. I understand that situation so I cried, but didn't make a fuss out of it at all.

When I got Dingding, I was super in love with him. He was such a dear! He would always follow me around the house, even if I went to the shower, he'd wait inside the bathroom, outside the shower door for me. I know it sounds weird that he's looking at me shower, BUT HE'S A DOG OK. DONT JUDGE. I'M SURE MANY PEOPLE DO IT AS WELL. And anyway if I don't let him into the bathroom with me, he'd whimper and scratch the door until I came out. SO POOR THING RIGHT?! HOW WILL YOU BEAR TO LEAVE HIM AT THE DOOR?!
Sis didn't like him very much, because he belongs to me. Anything that belongs to me, associated with me, came from me, it's inferior to her. Everything about her is superior and now that I think back, my pet as well. WTF SERIOUSLY.

So anyway, when my cousin came with his dog, an over-sized shih tzu, I liked it initially until it started bullying my Dingding just because it's bigger than him. I was so angry okay. He'd bite Dingding and push him out of his path and all sorts of things you thought only humans (especially girls) do to each other. Including attention seeking. It's almost watching bitch fight LITERALLY except that they were both males.
and guess what? My sister loved him. I bet it's because he's of the same kind as her. A BULLY. She's laugh at the way he bullies Dingding and mock Dingding for being bullied. WTF?! I swear she's psychotic anw. Honestly. Whenever Furby does something wrong, she blames it all on Dingding. Furby pee-ed on the sofa she insists it's Dingding. Dingding will never do something like that. It's not that I'm biased but through 1 year plus, there has been NO incidences of pee on the sofa until Furby came along. AND I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES HE PEE-ED ON THE FREAKING SOFA. So i defended Dingding and she insists that it's Dingding's pee. -.-
Furby is stronger, size wise and 'taller' if u kn what I mean like when he stands on his hind legs. He'd go to the rubbish bin, the step-and-the-lid-opens kind of bin we have in our home and step on the step w his front paw and put his head into the rubbish bin. THEN... HE'D DIG OUT FOOD / WHATEVER NONSENSE INSIDE IT OUT. I saw it with my own eyes as well, my sister saw it together with me as well. GUESS WHAT? SHE DIDN'T SCOLD! She thinks it's cute and go goo-goo-ga-ga all over Furby and 'scolded' him in a way I think he probably thought she was playing with him.
SO WHAT'S MY POINT?!

She is always right.
Whatever is hers (she claims Furby t be so cute and she likes it so much so it's 'hers' then), whatever is associated with her is THE BEST.
SHE IS SUPERIOR ABOVE ALL. At this point I'd make the sound of angel rising halo and sorts of sound if u know what I'm talking about. That open ur mouth and you just go ooooooaahhhhhhhhhh~ in a v holy-ish tone. If this is irl and I'm speaking all these words out, that sound will just appear from nowhere as though in a show.

I KNOW I DIGRESSED.

So anyway, I really want a dog.
I WILL HAVE ONE WHEN I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN LIFE.
I hope my other half will agree w my love for dogs.

I REALLY WANT A DOG ): I MISS DINGDING SO MUCH NOWADAYS...

): ): ):

DON'T PATRONIZE ME!!!

2011-11-22T12:50:00.001+08:00

Do you patronize people just so they feel less awkward / that you won't look like a dick / bitch?

I try not to. I mean well, sometimes it really can't be helped and sometimes I'm just not in the mood to be nice. I don't do it to people because it's actually pretty obvious when you're preoccupied with something yet you don't want to make someone feel awkward or that make yourself look bad. The body language, the tone of voice, the kind of replies.

IT'S SO BLOODY OBVIOUS.

If you're busy just say so! and apologise after that of course. You don't want to come off as rude. So anyway, my point is DON'T PATRONIZE ME! If you're busy tell me, if you need to go off, tell me. I'll appreciate it rather than being patronized and knowing that you think I don't know, but actually I do know.
Do I make sense? uhhh. Maybe you don't get it. Never mind.

ACTUALLY I HAVE NO IDEA WHY AM I HERE!

I guess...

I'M REALLY BORED AND I MISS TYPING. I love typing and seeing the words appear on the computer screen. Especially if I type really fast and I see th letters appear one after another. Do anyone else have this weird liking? Am I weird? Is it weird?!

Did I ever mention before that I like to watch the washing machine spin the clothes as well? I remember standing beside the washing machine while it fills the tub of clothes with water and starts spinning them. The fun part comes when the bubble starts appearing. I have no idea why I'm so mesmerized by the washing machine. My longest record was standing there just watching it spin for up to half hour or so. HEHEHE.

OH I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO FIND OUT:
What does it mean when you dream about your teeth falling out? I've dreamt about my teeth falling out multiple times. It's not all at once, but in my dream my teeth are all like loose and shaky, like how they'd be like when your milk tooth is about to fall out, except that in the dream it's the permanent teeth already. It's quite horrific actually because I can push it with my tongue and it falls out after awhile!
WHY?!

WHAT'S THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THIS DREAM?

If anyone knows pray tell.
Then again, I'll google for it.

"TEETH-FALLIGNG-OUT-DREAM"

KTHXBYE. (:

TIME PLEASE BE FASTER

2011-10-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I want time to pass really fast. Or rather, most of the time. I just want to lead my own life. It's not that I don't love them, but I'm feel suffocated, restricted and I'm never appreciated so what's the point.

I was much better off alone.
I know it cause I've already lived alone once. Guess what? I LOVED IT.

I get to do things on my own time, I enjoy doing the laundry, the cleaning even. At least I don't get ordered around like a maid.

I just want to move on and start my life. I don't know exactly what has gone wrong at home that makes me this way, but I do know it's one person's doing. Her way of life has disrupted mine or ours totally. It's almost impossible to live with her.

ARGH.

I want to move on. With you (:

OVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!

2011-09-23T15:21:00.001+08:00

Everytime before my exam ends I get so excited for the after-exams. THEN THE EXAMS END AND I DON'T FEEL MUCH ANYMORE. WHYYYYYYYYYYY. Anticipate too much I guess.

I REALISE THERE'S NO DIFFERENCE. I STILL HAVE TO STAY AT HOME. Cannot always go out -.- because blah blah blah worked so hard to provide me a good home blah blah blah. YES I GET IT BUT I EVERYDAY STAY AT HOME DO WHAT?! Also no one at home!

I stay home weekdays then weekends I want go out cannot meh. I'M FREAKING 20 OMG. If I'm still being controlled like that when I'm 21 I really don't know what to say.

Anyway, I studied for Anthropology the whole bloody week. Like literally took the whole week to study for Anthro and kinda neglected the rest of my modules. But! I think it was the right thing to do though. I would say my weakest would be Anthro because I attended only the first 5 lectures? Plus I think it has so much more memorizing work to do and it is OH-SO-DRY. I don't really get the notes anyway!

The lecturer reads from the slides. LITERALLY. WORD FOR WORD. Then shows about an hour of video. -.-

Anthro paper was on Monday night 7pm - 9pm. I reached home at 10plus and after a very late dinner, I showered and knocked out. I wanted to study through the night but I really couldn't take it. Woke up at 8am t study till 12pm. Flipped through all the Sociology lecture notes, did a bit of serious reading for the first chapter only. Must remember all the theories like Functionalism, Conflict Theory, Post-modernism, Feminism and Globalization. I think I didn't give like exact theories and I'm surprised I actually have nonsense to write for the long essay.

IT IS INSANE THAT THE LONG ESSAY QNS IS 40MARKS AND JUST SMACK ONE QNS. NO BREAKDOWNS LIKE 1a, 1b kind of questions. For both Anthro and Soci. Insane.

100 MCQS FOR PSY 1 PAPER! Flipped through in the morning too. -.-

Let's hope I don't fail. My participation mark for tutorial wasa 44/80. That's for missing 3 tutorials out of 8! Damn.

I'll start trimester 2 right I promise. RAR.

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I can't stay over ): I'm so sad. I had a hard time persuading my mother and I have yet to settle my sister. It's so unfair with regards to the things she was doing at my age then and now I'm treated like a 10yrs old more than 20. ARGH.

Her bf then was already staying with us then now guys cannot even enter my room. EVEN WITH THE DOOR OPEN. WHAT NONSENSE SIA.

Should I like make my stand and don't care? ARGH.

I EAT LIKE A SUMO :(

2011-09-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

The title is unrelated. Anyway. . .

I MOVED HOUSE.

FINALLY. A HOUSE OF OURS. NOT RENTED NOT TEMPORARY.

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y.

messy packing back in Bishan.

oh lookie what i found.

the book I never got to finish. Birthday present from Cheryl.

Empty closet! Emptied all the clothes already and into one big container.

leaving after checking the condition of after renovation. Look at our huge shoe rack.

My room! Purple wall is love.

sliding mirror.

kitchen wall hacked down, replaced by sliding glass panels.

galaxy grey for dining area walls!

huge containers we bought to put our things. LOL. Damn huge. I think I can go in and have th cover closed.

Moved in already and that's my bedframe! :D

My mother found her lonely corner. ROFL.

Look at my container of clothes. My feet there for estimation of the size of the container.

OH I SUPER LOVE THE TAP. Chio right.

Shelf. WHICH I SLAMMED MY HEAD INTO ACCIDENTALLY. Fucking pain.

Study table!

Everything's done already, all furniture's in too. The contractors are coming in tomorrow for the final touch-ups. (:

HOME SWEET HOME FINALLY.
Oh did I mention my own room for the very first time in 20 years.

ok enough abt my house. time to bombard w some of my photos.

stone face while doing assignment. lolol.

still in Bishan then.

OH MY NAILS. CHIO NOT.

STILL IN BISHAN THEN.

OK NO MOREEEEEE.
GOODNIGHT!

DON'T KNOW. . .

2011-08-29T02:12:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I think it's so amazing how my friends from other place become friends from another place. I mean like in terms of where you get to know each group of friends. It's just such coincidence.

This time, the coincidence hurts me. I wish I was able to be excited about it. Instead of being excited, I am sad. Sad that I can't share it anymore.

I should stop being indecisive but I can't help it. I still feel the pain, the misses. I know you do too, but there's nothing to be done.

Sometimes I really don't know what to do except cry.

Rolling Tears. . .

2011-08-25T02:07:00.001+08:00

What a decision I made, but I know there's no turning back. The moment my heart wasn't certain, I knew there's no more continuation to this story. It can't be helped. I didn't mean it, but what are words? I can say anything, apologise a million times, keep saying I don't mean it, but a million words don't mean a thing, they don't heal wounds, they don't take away pain.

I feel the pain, I cried and cried and cried and I am still crying.

Who am I to complain when I'm the fire-starter?

Who am I to complain when I'm the one inflicting pain?

Who am I to complain when I was the one who ended it?

Who am I to complain when I'm the heartbreaker.

Breaking my own heart, breaking people's heart.

Throughout all my relationships, I always take them seriously. I do. Maybe some I know they won't last but while I'm in each relationship, I do treasure the relationship. Maybe it's inbred, maybe I just don't take it seriously. I feel that I do but my actions disagree.

"Dear Jon,

I loved every single moment we spent together. From before we got together to getting together and being a couple. We did everything together. Almost I guess. You were the first guy that does everything that I do and I like. Your personality is just so different from any other guy that I know.

You are more than unique. I know I never told you this before but yes, althought people always say you're crazy or weird always do random weird stuff. To me, you're just so different and more than just a unique person. I know everyone's unique, but you're more than just unique.

I thought we had it. I thought I saw us in the future together.

Apparently, I didn't love you enough to not stray. I can't believe I'm saying all these here. I just need to get it out. I'm a coward cause I don't have the courage to face you to say it.

I still want to apologise for all the promises that I made. I'm sorry for your tears. There's no way to determine if anyone is good enough for anyone, but I just know that you're too good for me. I'm probably not really the one. Maybe close to that someone that belongs to you, but not yet the one. I can picture in my mind who is the right one for you and how you and her should be together happily.

I wish I was the one, but I ruined everything so there's no turning back.

But, I still love you."

I never knew it can be so painful. I never knew I can cry so much, for so many days. I don't even remember crying so much ever.

I caused the pain and I'm crying over it.

What an idiot I am.

Miss Singapore International 2011 PHOTOS!!!

2011-07-28T21:24:00.002+08:00

Finally uploaded them and resized one by one to put up. :D

These are the preparations, workshops before the finals on 2nd July. It was the whole month of June! I still remember the very first training was on my birthday. hehehe.

Very first photoshoot! How do I look? hahaha.

Workshop by Coach Joshua Luke from Signature Image; a discussion about our body proportion, shape and size.

"Class photo"!!!

Home visit to Moral Home for the Disabled! They put up a lion dance show for us. How sweet :)

Tea-time!

Everyone together. The visit to the home was so heart-warming. You can really see the care and love the volunteers show them.

Handling Media Workshop with Jackeline Carter!

Gown fitting at Yvonne Creative! That's Yvonne herself! I really liked the gown she picked for me, it suits my skin tone well! (: Yvonne has make-over package as well and rental of gowns and matching accessories for any special occasions of yours!

Ivy and Stella, my 'twin'. Do we really look alike? A lot of people keep commenting about our looks. Even Stella's mom herself. Oh, my mom too.

2nd workshop with Jackeline Carter! Preparation of how to answer questions if we are in Top 5, which I didn't get it. However, it was good training. It gave me an idea of how to position myself and how to speak into the mike properly. We think that we look fine with whatever we do normally, but once on stage you will look odd if you do not stand properly or even if you hold the mike too close to your face. Jackeline showed us a few videos of pageant contestants who didn't hold their poise well and it actually looks horrible even though that's how we normally speak and stand when not on stage. So like I said, good training and experience! (:

So prepped with my newfound knowledge and skills, THE FINALS CAME!!

Make-up time!

almost done!!

Ivy, Novell and Stella

My international costume

Ivy Soh, representing SWITZERLAND!

My gown on stage!

How do I look in my yellow gown? :)

I secretly love the slit. hehehe.

Swimwear!

This photo is actually amusing because Novell and Stella kept saying how my curves are so extremely curvy. We kinda had a good laugh over it. But, DO I LOOK GOOD?

Cocktail Dress segment! It's actually my favourite but too bad it's not judged.

I just love this dress so much. Thanks so much i'Lovmore!!!

Look at how gorgeous all their cocktail dresses are!! I'm sorry that th photo is really small. I hope you it can be seen still.. hahaha.

So this marks the end of my first pageant...
MORE TO COME. I WILL DEFINITELY JOIN MORE AFTER I HAVE GRADUATED!

Miss Singapore International 2011

2011-07-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

As I mentioned before, I was in Miss Singapore International 2011. The finals held on 2 July 2011 and it was such a memorable night. Never in my life I thought that I would be able to fulfil my dream of walking down the runway as one of the contestant in a pageant.

The girls I met made the journey so special. Never mind about the trainings from weekly to daily, to 1am in the morning, the girls just made it so much easier. I'm so proud of my favourite girls, Stella (1st runner up), Cherie (2nd runner up) and Novell (4th runner up). Oh yupp, I didn't get anything.
If I went on and say that it's okay I'm not bothered by it, I'd be lying to everyone including myself. Honestly, I was disappointed when I didn't even get into Top 5. I cried backstage. I cried and I couldn't stop crying until the girls came back after the queen was announced. Still, congrats to all the Top 5 girls and Yunny for clinching the title.

The photos are on their way, so HOLD ON! Hopefully I've got the time. Hehe.

I FINALLY HIT 20.

2011-06-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

I dreaded the coming of this day. I dreaded turning 20, but I know the day will still come and I will turn 20 eventually. I even cried a few times knowing that I'm gonna be 20 soon. I feel like I haven't accomplished anything and I'm already hitting 20.

Finally I decided to embrace the fact. HAHA.

So Jon brought me out to Universal Studio Singapore on 4th June as birthday celebration. It was so fun. HEHE. We took the rollar coasters like 10+ times because there was NO QUEUE AT ALL. I think we were damn lucky. There was one point when we just sat in our seats and took the same ride 3x consecutively because the person controlling went, "YOU GUYS WANNA GO A 2ND ROUND?" Everyone on board said yes and we went off without getting off and queuing again. HAHAHHAA.

So anyway, we stayed for fireworks. It was pretty good for a non-special-event random fireworks display. lol. We brisk walked back to Vivo because the stupid monorail queue was so damn long. We managed to reach back at Vivo, to awfullyChocolate in time to buy a cake for me! :D

awfullyChocolate cake! :D

IVY'S 20!! We lighted the candles at midnight and Jon used his iphone to play Happy Birthday using some guitar app. HAHAHA. Cheating, but appreciated (:

Sam, me and Jon

Thanks Sam for coming by! :D

Polaroids we took at USS! A lot of people don't know how to take photos with polaroid i swear. I said I wanted the castle in the background he took the photo with 3/4 of it filled with skies. -.- Then 2 others took it with other people in the background when we asked if there's anyone nearby, they said NO. Waste the film! BLAH.

We finished the cake ok. 3 person. I finished majority of it. I'm amazed I could sleep still that night.

FINALLY 20 (: Not so bad to be 20 afterall. I had a pretty awesome day and I'm an extremely happy girl right now. I hope it lasts. (:

The next day's actually then my birthday but because of trainings and workshops for Miss Singapore Internationals (MSI), I can't celebrate or have dinner with family. ):
SO WE WENT FOR BIRTHDAY BREAKFAST INSTEAD! At Swensens. hehe. After that, mom bought me to make a pair of new spectacles. YAY!

LOOK LIKE TEACHER!

ok abrupt ending of post because it's all over already!

However, I still want to thank everyone who wished me. Everyone! There are so many people who I don't really talk much to anymore, there are probably like so many that got reminded only because of FB, there are also many who I can't really remember,

BUT THANKS EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME OVER ALL KINDS OF SOCIAL NETWORKS! BE IT FB, TWITTER, SMS, BBM, WHATSAPP, EMAIL etc, I READ EVERY SINGLE WELL-WISHES AND I APPRECIATE THEM REALLY.

Thank you!!!

Oh yeah, special thanks to the MSI girls for singing me a Happy Birthday song during the training. LOVE YOU GIRLS! Thank you! (:

xoxo.

New Shoot!

2011-04-20T02:27:00.000+08:00

CREDITS TO VINCE FOR THESE PHOTOS!!!

Vince and Jay were such easy people to work with! Can't wait to work with them again. Anyway, comments welcomed! (:

Qing Ming

2011-04-11T02:02:00.000+08:00

I thought I could skip qingming. I was rather upset when my mother told me at such late notice.

Then, again I guess it's not that bad since I can catch up with my brother and spend some time with my mother. That made her slightly happier I guess.

My cute mom!

Look like me?

MY BROTHER. YES HE IS REALLY MY BROTHER.

So how any resemblance?

mom, sis-in-law and brother (:

Journey of my TEETH

2011-03-28T02:39:00.000+08:00

I guess the title sounds pretty strange, but I feel that it has really been a journey for my teeth and for me as well.

FINALLY DONE WITH BRACES.

I promise I will take good care of them. I promise to wear retainers and I don't ever want braces back on my teeth anymore. I keep hearing experiences from ex-braces-wearer!! So many of them kept telling me their teeth shifted, they got lazy with retainers, they had to be back on braces a 2nd time.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I PROMISE I WILL BE DISCIPLINED!

So anyway, I thought I should go back in time and have a look how I look like with braces.

BUT.....

As I scanned through all my old photos, I realise I have a lot of bad photos -.- I can't find a decent one, which I look good or at least normal. -.-

WHY WAS I SO BU YAO LIAN AND THOUGHT I LOOK GOOD THEN?!

OMG I FEEL LIKE BURYING MYSELF...

Oh well, shall still share. (kicking myself inside now. blah.) I still did lots of choosing and yeah, probably these are the BETTER ONES. I repeat 'BETTER ONES'

oh hi, this was when i was Sec 2 (14 yrs old), in the canteen of Mediacorp, waiting for our turn to perform or something. Performed in the NKF Charity Show's Opening Ceremony. I look..... YOUNG.

This was Sec 2 as well I think? No wait. Sec 3. A haircut by Cheri. HAHA.Nice earrings, NOT.

I think this was Chinese New Year when I was Sec 3. HAHA.

At Cheri's house studying for O Levels. Nice Shrek's Ears there. HEHE.

Polyclinic, I think I was accompanying Qiling.

Digressing, my pri school photo. I don't think I have ever mentioned before, but when I was young, like primary school, I don't smile in photos. I thought I looked retarded smiling because I didn't know how to control my smile, I ended up showing my gums as well. Then, I thought that I should not smile because I didn't realise that one can smile without showing their teeth. SO THIS IS WHAT YOU GET: A STONE FACE.

MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE CLASSIC PHOTO of Cheri, me and Audrey. I LOOKED SO INNOCENT, NO WAIT WE ALL LOOKED SO INNOCENT. and sweet. not forgetting *ahem*chio*ahem*

See my how act-chio I was even with my nonsense teeth -.- Getting ready to attend a wedding dinner. Lol.

Secondary 4, in class. I assume it's free period since I'm on earphones and taking pictures. -.- How could I be so proud to be smiling with those nonsense teeth. ZOMG.

Oh, I found cute, young IVY.

My act-mature period. HAHAHAHA.

I think this was after a haircut at Cheri's house by Cheri. HAHAHAHA.

BRACES!!!!! If you notice, all my nonsense, grow at weird places teeth shifted down already. Such amazing technology. AND OF COURSE I EXTRACTED TWO TEETH TO MAKE SPACE FOR THEM. So this starts my journey of braces and results in me learning to smile without showing my teeth.

Oh, the wedding dinner. So sorry that the photos are in such random orders, but HEY LOOK! IT'S MY SIS AND MOM! Do we look alike? ahhahahahahha.

My Sweet Sixteen Birthday Celebration at Cheri's house. I must say I look quite normal here aye? HAHAHA.

Chinese New Year again! PLEASE IGNORE MY WEIRD MAKE-UP. I can't believe I went out in this make-up -.- Oh look! Christmas theme-inspired braces. HAHAHAHA.

ooooh. Like chio only ah? ^.^ HAHAHAHHA. POLY YEAR 1

YEAR 1 still. Think I just cut my bangs and decided to have my hair tied back and look like a sporty chick. LOL.

Oh hi yes, this is my toilet back in my condo in CCK.

My 18th Birthday at Swensen. Smiling with my braces. Not a norm, but I guess I was trying to show how happy I was. HAHAHHAHA. And showing a tad too much gum thr. -.-

Oh, this was also when I just did my eyebrow piercing not long before. So, this was Poly Year 2 or 3. I guess either in between or beginning of Year 3.

End of Poly Year 3. OH DURING ATTACHMENT. heh. See? Smile without teeth.

Another one. I look so boring.

I think practice makes perfect. I say my smile without teeth smile is making me look good. HAHAHAHA. Agree?!

Ah yes, before removing make-up, bit of cam-whoring.

I hope I don't look intoxicated. Do I? This was also before I permed my hair. OH I MISS MY NATURALLY STRAIGHT BUT NT TOO STRAIGHT AND FLAT HAIR. Like I said, I smile without showing teeth and I guess I look normal. YOU WOULD NOT HAVE GUESSED THAT I HAD BRACES ON UNLESS I OPEN MY MOUTH RIGHT?

Permed hair!

AND FINALLY,ON 25 MARCH 2011...... . . . . . . . .

NO MORE BRACES, NO MORE NONSENSE TEETH. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

I hope the 3 years was worth it. I do look different from when I had no braces on, but with nonsense teeth right?

Ahhhhh. I like licking my teeth now. HAHAHAHHAA.

ok GOODNIGHT!

PROMISE TO BE STRICT WITH MYSELF ABOUT THE RETAINER. When I get it that is.

HEHE!

What A Day

2011-03-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

I always complain when I have to go tuition, go out to do some stuff. I'd be too lazy to get out of the house. Actually it's the preparing procedure that I dread.
I still remember the times when I took like 2 mins for make-up and my hair needed no attention. I can be out of the house within 20 mins of waking up and that includes showering.

Maybe I should try getting out of the house without make-up again. THEN AGAIN, I'd be too self-conscious and I'd have no confidence. Ok never mind, shall stick back to my old routine -.-

As for today, I have nothing on. TOTALLY NOTHING ON. I'd be stoning at home. hehehe.

Oh meeting the bf for dinner today in town. Celebrate the end of his exams. Someone's gonna be really happy and relieved.

Shall rot till then then.

Caught In Between

2011-03-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

FML I TYPED SO MUCH AND MY INTERNET CRASHED ON ME AND DELETED MY WHOLE POST.

FML.

My main point is I wish that everyone sit down and talk it out. We're not 12 yrs old anymore, we should know better than to play cold war.

You can say I am acting mature.

You can in fact say anything you want.

But you're not me and this is me. I am how I am. I don't have to act.

I don't have to act tough / act mature / whatever.

I just wish the best of everything.

I WILL BE CHIO SOON.

2011-02-21T13:09:00.002+08:00

Taking out my braces on the 28th.

I CAN'T WAIT.

I've had them on for 3 years plus ok!
December 2007 - Feb 2011.

I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.
I WANT TO BE CHIO.

OK.

GOOD MAKE-UP DAY

2011-02-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

Another normal weekend for me. I would think my weekends are really boring. In fact, now my weekdays and weekends are all jumbled up -.- everyday is like a weekend to me.

FEEL LIKE SUCH A BUM.

Caught "Just Do It". It's damn funny I couldn't stop laughing and at the same time I feel so excited. I know that the two will be together in the end. OK NO SPOILERS.

Anyway, today was a good make-up day for me. Make-up was ALMOST perfect for me. hehehe.

IGNORE ALL THE RANDOM STUFF BEHIND ME. THANKS.

TIME TO CONTINUE MY 'FRINGE'.
oh i love walter bishop. he's such a cute old man.

Photoshoot part 2 + slight changes!

2011-02-19T03:21:00.000+08:00

did a slight changes for my blog! :D LIKE MY NEW HEADER PIC? i decided that it's time for a change in header pic. update a bit. hahahahha.

anyway, these are the part 2 of my photoshoot. THANKS ASHLEY! they are at the sidebar anw (:

i like this! but i think that I dont look like me?

looking angry here.

hope you guys like it!

OH HELLO

2011-02-18T01:01:00.000+08:00

So finally,

I HAVE COME TO THE END OF MY TERTIARY EDUCATION!!!

it still feels so surreal up till now. 14 Feb, which was Val's day, was poster presentation day and it was a mixture of excitement and anxiety.

Excitement because I know that is the last final thing I have to do in school.

Anxiety because I had no prior practice for my presentation. Only TTSH doesn't require the students (us) to present our projects. The rest of the hospitals' projects were presented before the end of attachment or after the attachment when the poster was completed. It's good and it's bad.

Whatever it is, just a shoutout, IT'S OVER!!!

Random updates:

1. Took loads of photos of Gareth (my nephew)

2. Chinese New Year was ok, I woke up late, skipped a place of visiting ): less angbao. Finally saw my 2nd brother aft almost 3 years. Didn't take any photos. Spent about $120(?) for clothes, bought a jeans and 2 tops.

3. Clubbing w Mas, Fadz and Rozand (Zirca then Zouk) We were crazily high when we entered th cab from zirca to go zouk. Will never forget how retarded we were inside the cab, giggling over nothing. LOL.

in zirca with our drinks.

4. Did manicure with Rozand, ZEBRA PREENS.

5. Poster presentation is over (mentioned above)

6. 2 Val's day celebration, one at fish & co on the 12 Feb and Timbre on 14 Feb. All photos taken on 12 Feb. Dinner treat at East Coast Lagoon by Faiz :D

MBS after advanced Val's day lunch treat! I know I look sad, BUT I'M NOT.

7. Finally saw my photoshoot part 1 photos :D

MY FAVOURITE. YAY.

Favourite no. 2!

That's all for my update (:

PROJECT

2011-01-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

NTH ABT PROJ IN THIS POST.
ONLY THING IS.

I GOT BORED DOING PROJECT.

so... here are some self-shots. over time. from when my hair was straight until I decided to perm them. hehe.

ok tt's all. LOL.

I'm a bitch like that.

2011-01-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

Actually, I wouldn't consider myself bitchy and unreasonable, but this place has made me a bitch-ier person than I already am. LOL. Thanks to people like her that exist.

AM I GLAD THAT NEXT WEEK IS MY LAST WEEK.

I probably have a low tolerance for different characteristic of people, ESPECIALLY GIRLS. I especially CANNOT STAND whiny / damsel-in-distress kinda girl. Act so weak for what! Will die is it. I'm probably not perfect myself, but who cares, I just don't like people like that. LOL.
Oh, not to forget mentioning act close / popular / very girly girly girls.

Very close with you meh! Anyhow hug la, tickle la. Such an eyesore to see. Not to me FORTUNATELY. I did get it once though, but it was in front of many people. Probably to act cute / sexily playful OR SOMETHING IDK?! Normally don't even talk to me one, want t come slap my ass, after that cute cute say sorry. wth. I slap you on ur face, giggle a bit then say sorry and giggle some more. Can? (:

I also cannot tolerate people who cannot walk properly. AHAHHAHAHA. OH MY GOD IM SUCH AN UNREASONABLE PERSON. I would consider my walking fairly normal, at least I don't open my legs extremely wide, walk dragging my feet, or leave my body behind while I walk. Maybe sexy ah, can sway ur butt (if it even exist in the first place). ^.^

i know what you wanna be, that fame / glam what-not. SAD TO SAY, YOU CAN'T MAKE IT. You probably need to look pretty first. lol. You're not.

OK IM SO MEAN. CONFIRM GOT KARMA.
SHOULD STOP HERE.
SHALL DO MY PROJECT. HHAHAHAHHAA.

Contact Lens

2011-01-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

I haven't been wearing my contact lens for a week now, partly lazy, partly cause the ones in the casing expired already. HAHA.
When I don't wear contacts, I don't have to put on make up and that makes me lazier cause when I reach home sometimes I just plonk on the bed and nap awhile before waking up to shower :x

YES, I'm guilty of that.
My work's very tiring okay! (actually it isn't, it's the waking up part I hate to the max)

Anyway 3 more weeks to be free!!! I am so excited! I've been thinking about it day and night. HOHOHO.

Can't believe I survived 17 weeks already with about 11 days of MC? HHAHAHAHAHAHA. Hey I was really sick ok, if not how to get the MCs. Tsk, don't think I don't know what you thinking.

Oh and back to contact lens, I should really get rid of the expired ones and start wearing new ones. HEH!

**I did something to my hair again**
trimmed all the dead ends away(thanks to the perming, never gonna go back Snip Avenue again unless no choice), did big curls instead of small auntie perms. Oh, the stylist thinned my hair a lot too.
I'm only heartache cause it's so much shorter now! I WANT TO DIE. it took me so long to reach that length?! To think I wanted to spend Chinese New Year this year with long sexy hair. TSK. Fat hope. Shouldn't have permed my hair in the first place. Should have went to where I went ytd and did it. ARGHHHHHHH. It'd be so much longer and nice lor!

PLEASE HAIR GROW FAST. I WANT IT LOOOOOOOOOONG.

BYE 2010, i love and hate you at the same time!

2011-01-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

My 2010 was like extremely eventful? heh. Not much of pleasant incidents, more unpleasant ones. This has been my worst year since 2006. It's ok I learnt some lessons too. Costly lessons i think.

In summary, I hate that so many shit happen, including a few police cases (retarded max), being in and out of a relationship, and finally sticking to one status. Seems like there's no reason for me to love it, but I believe all these happened for a reason and also better now than later, at least I survived them already?

Made some great friends here and there! hehe. Also, the main part of my life right now is about my studies and my studies right now, the main part is about student internship. Thanks to this intern I'm close with Rozand and it's kinda nice. I just can't wait for this whole thing to be over and I will finally be done with SIP.

oh. and i permed my hair. BIG MISTAKE. IDW CURLY AHMA MAGGIE MEE HAIR! I WANT WAVES SEXY WAVES. MY GOODNESS. TSK.

******

anyway, had a great countdown w friends at erm marina.
the getting out part was damn bloody shit though. A bunch of drunk banglas kept whistling and shouting, like everyone else is not waiting?!

idk how people do that whistle shit, i swear it's damn annoying. I mean hello, i get it that you're hot and you wanna get out of here, bloody stop whistling will you. You whistle won't clear the crowd, you make people irritated and make them want to punch you. I swear i was so close to shouting STFU. They were directly behind my group of friends and thus it was extremely loud.

If I know how to do I swear I do it into his ear until he deaf.

we walked from behind the floating platform all the way to arab st. 1h was spent trying to get out of the crowd from marina.

So it was kinda scary when you are among the crowd cause you lose sight of your friends anytime. Best part is I'm short so I get to smell everyone's armpit (; black armpits too though i try not to stand so close to them. They like to come close I guess, their habit to be close and hugg-ish and what not?
WTH, go get your own friend, not me.

So we went for shisha at NABINS.

OKAY PHOTOBUCKET HANGING ON ME SO ANNOYING.
I AM IMPATIENT.
KTHXBYE.

I had a bad and long day.
will talk abt it soon.

5 MORE FREAKING WEEEEEEEEEEEKS!

2010-12-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

*please read my title in your mind ending w a high singing note*

I'm so sorry for being so lame. I think I lack entertainment big time. Attachment + project is not helping, making me a duller person than all-work-and-no-play-makes-Jack-a-dull-boy Jack. Work is frustrating me out, I feel so much like giving up now, but it's just 5 weeks more so MUST TAHAN!

It's not really work come to think of it. I feel like cheap labour more please. It's supposed to be attachment, where we learn more things, but I feel that there's nothing coming out of it. I'm not learning that much. Tell me what can you learn from what I do 70-80% of the time:
1. Pack medicines into ziplocks and put them into the correct conveyor belt for express and normal queue numbers.
2. Sort the packed medicines into their correct queue baskets.

The only thing that's learning point to me is during dispensing attachment. Sitting beside a pharmacist and observing how they dispense.
I feel stupid really most of the time -.- because I can't remember what I've studied in school. Honestly, packing medicines whole week and only dispensing once a week, my brain's going rusty.

But, whatever, it's ending soon, I'll just hang on. 5 MORE WEEKS. I can't stop emphasizing the fact.
There are really nice people there, but there are really horrible people there too.

Not so top then don't act as if you're at the top can. Damn pissing. Everything must scold. Everything must say. You're not in-charge that day then keep your dragonmouth shut please. Oh we call the person dragon by the way. Can't remember the reason why but yeah.
OH AND SHE HAS DRAGON BREATH. I swear it's damn smelly especially in the morning. Whenever she talks like beside me, I want to gag. I SWEAR. Cannot take it. Damn sick. Order people around like free. I feel like a ball.

"Go to x please."
"Go to y please."
"Why are you here again? I thought I told you to stay at x?"
and confirm she picks on people. very the obvious.
CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT STAND THE FAKE SMILE AND LAUGHTER.
I think maybe tt's why got no boobs. random fact. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Bootlickers seem to pop out from everywhere in this society. School have, here also have. BOOTLICKER MUCH. Carry balls only. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, SHOWER CAN? OR SPRAY SOME DEO / PERFUME! another smell that makes me gag. I hold my breath whenever i'm nearby her.
Now that I think of her, her smell is in nose. shit, i feel like gagging now. damn gross.

Sometimes I don't understand why people have to be so action or think so highly of themselves. We are all human, we are all equal IMO. Don't have to act like you know everything la.
Everything people talk about you also know.

"Oh yeah you know cameras ...."
"Oh oh yeah... this game..."
"Oh yeah, you want this/that you go this country.."
"Oh yeah! I go before.."

I think her life very interesting ah, everywhere go before, everything see before, everything touch/see/hear/play before. EVERYTHING. Go la, go be an advisor for life. BEST. Stay here for what, why not better still go be a pharmacist la, why technician only? I swear these people think they are the best and the world revolves around them.

OK IM DONE WHINING. HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE.
MERRY CHRISTMAS, GO HOLIDAY W GF/BF DONT COME BACK W A CHILD.
HAVE FUN GOODNIGHT.
I'm going to sleep and wake up to see and witness the above mentioned AGAIN for another 5 more weeks.

Steamboat Dinner

2010-11-21T13:30:00.000+08:00

Steamboat dinner on Tuesday with Mom was AWESOME.
I missed that place, that steamboat place my Dad would bring me to whenever there's a special occasion. Maybe it sounds boring to you guys, like everytime got occasion always go same place. Haha. My old traditional Dad, but I love him and when I stepped into that place, I missed him so much.

I could picture the scene when the 3 of us, Mom, Dad and me sitting together at the corner seat he always chooses and us having dinner together. Most of the time were during weekends or one of their birthdays. God, I miss those days. The last time I went there it was like almost 5 years back? I think even longer.
I miss you papa.

the empty steamboat

FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. Didn't have beef that day :(

My Mom is pretty and cute isn't she? ^.^ Why everyone says I look like her?! I don't see much resemblance eh! I look more like my Dad!On a side note, I like my hair here.

I love you mommy :D I can see my bloody gross tan line. EW.

I am feeling kinda stressed up right now. I need money desperately again. ): I don't wanna use my savings. They are for dental, they are for my phuket trip!

OH BY THE WAY, I LOST MY EZ-LINK CARD AWESOME OR WHAT. WITHIN A FEW MONTHS OF RE-MAKING IT. ZZZZZ.
AND MY POSB CARD AS WELL. On the same day all lost. And on the same day when I decided to do some shopping spree. !#$%^&*($%^&*

RAWR.

Glitter on the floor

2010-11-14T14:26:00.000+08:00

I can't remember the last time I went clubbing. I think it was more than half a year ago? I mean like real clubbing with lots of alcohol, dancing, laughing and what not.

BUT POWERHOUSE ON A SATURDAY NIGHT SUCKS. :(

Rozand, Stephen and I got our chops but the rest didn't and after drinking outside, we all couldn't get in anymore thanks to the damn bloody long queue and it was full house, as usual. Hopped around everywhere trying to gain entry into powerhouse from other clubs. Boiler, Dragonfly, Modiva.. etc EVERYWHERE. Boiler's music damn weird, dragonfly's crowd's weird, Modiva is empty basically. We didn't get into powerhouse in the end. Oh I did actually, to use the locker and to retrieve my items from the locker after that -.-

Fun still, with the drinking in the beginning. LOL. 6 bottles of alcohol, 20 people. Awesome or awesome.

Roz and I inside Vivo toilet. Need a toilet break from all that we've drank.

Inside Boiler. I was sitting down half the time because I was super tired already. Didn't sleep much the previous day, woke up early for Campus Discussion and nap for 15 mins and then clubbing at night. MY GOODNESS.

Anyway, had campus discussion yesterday. I have no idea how well I fared, but I don't think it was very good ): I had some issues with my project's aim and my methodology. Apparently whatever I'm doing doesn't address to my aims and there's no link to it. The way I try to link it doesn't seem fair enough for doctors and I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE, I'M TOO STRESSED TO CONTINUE THINKING ABOUT IT.

I wanna do good I wanna do good I wanna do good. ):
I know I've always been really unlucky and knowing that, I still sabotage myself. TSK.
IVY SOH IVY SOH. You need to work harder to change people's impression. No more MCs too, unless you are dying in bed kinda sick, BUT I WAS REALLY REALLY SICK ALL THE TIMES I TOOK MCs ):
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Why am I always caught in situations that aren't exactly ideal for me and my bloody attachment. I admit it was my wrong, but it just so happens that I'm the only person caught doing the 'illegal' thing. SIGH.

Whatever, 10 weeks more. I MAKE SURE I CHANGE EVERYONE'S IMPRESSION AND PERCEPTION OF ME.

Probably not gonna do anything medical-related after graduation, but since I've come this far already, might as well just end it with a good note. At least I feel better about myself.
Been thinking a lot about what to do, what to work as, whether to study a not post-graduation. Talked to Wan's lecturer about my change in interest and we concluded that I should go into marketing since I like to talk to people and interact with people. Sounds good?

I'll probably go full-time tuition and part-time organizing post-graduation. Don't think I wanna go back to TTSH to work there as a pharmacy technician. The schedule kinda gives me a phobia and the thought of doing everything the same everyday freaks me out actually. Like short-term now, for 20 weeks seems fine, a little dreading but at least it's temporary, that comforts me. A LOT.

): Lots of stuff going through my mind all the time. I want to make everything work, but I need more time time time.

Please, let me finish my SIP in peace and finish it with a sweet note.

Much Learnt

2010-10-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

Over the weeks I've learned much, I've picked up much and seen too many, experienced too many things first hand.
Overall I would say it's good to open up my eyes and see the world for myself. Learning process is never easy but I like it that it's enriching and very interesting I should say.

I see a change in myself, the way I handle things, the way I speak to certain people and how to go about handling different people to different situations.
Sometimes situations piss me off so bad, but I can only live and make changes to it to make it better.
There's room for improvement, I swear my attitude should improve more.

My stress level tolerance seemed to have increased, which is gooooooooooooooooooood.

Oh and I'm finally gaining weight. :D

This time, IM GONNA MAKE IT

2010-10-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I've been so busy. AGAIN. I've been neglecting a lot of things as I get busier and busier. I just hope my loved ones will not be neglected. I try not to neglect them. :\

Life's treating me awesome, apart from the fact that I keep falling sick. Singapore's haze is killing me slowly. Causing me shortness of breath and stuff. zzz.

Just a quick update. I went to the clinic today to have my x-ray of my lungs. "Unclear outline of the lungs..." "..could be due to previous infectious illness or current developing infectious illness.."
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ): Please let me be alright. please let it be caused by my previous upper respiratory tract infection.

oh btw, I WANT TO TAKE MY BRACES OUT ASAP.

RECOVERY PLS

2010-10-10T22:55:00.001+08:00

Where did Recovery go?

Anyone knows?

Please inform me. Im looking for him.

Meanwhile, I can only settle for Medicine. He's not bad, but I prefer Recovery.

Sometimes I Would LOVE a Break

2010-10-02T16:31:00.000+08:00

Been so stressed up and busy ever since attachment started. Did I mention I already dropped one tuition? So now it's just one tuition I'm handling, my attachment which I go to everyday and doing background planning for my business. It's really tedious and just sucks all my energy and attention.

I've been so caught up with it that I don't have a single bit of time for leisure or entertainment and competition's tough out there baby! I just cried yesterday night talking about my stress and all. I can't believe I cried actually, having been a stubborn and hard-headed one all along. I guess I do have my weak point. I think my tolerance for stress is really low -.- Hardship yes, I can take it well, but when things overwhelm me, I go stress tt will be bad. I don't mind hardship, I just wish that I can take stress better. Whoever said that stress makes one perform better, that's bullshit. I swear they are just self-comforting. LOL.

Need my desktop back so I can do my work easier and so I can webcam and whatnot. I have no idea what is with laptop rejecting all versions of msn except windows msng and it doesn't accept skype either. WHAT THE HELL.

I need to get back to work.
It's been a tiring week and my weekend is ending tomorrow.
Guess what? I haven't had time to sit down and relax. I have to be on my toes again by 1730.
First time in my life I don't have any chance at all to slack and relax.

Thus, what I've been saying for the past 2 weeks : I NEED A BREAK.

OH MY SO BUSY

2010-09-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

NEVER BEEN SO BUSY IN MY LIFE.
EVER.

Now I'm super occupied by two things. Business and attachment. ahhh.
Attachment's so far so good, lucky I have easy transport to my workplace. like 23 then 21. I just hate it when I get 10am shifts, cause that means I get to knock off only at like 7pm. DAMN LATE PLEASE. Go out also sky dark already, night come already, cannot do much already. Waste time only. Don't mind starting at 830am at all. knock off 1730 man!!

Soooooo, been saving up a lot a lot. I want to get rid of my braces ASAP. Really, been too long. Can't wait to see myself without braces man.

NEVER GONNA ANYHOW SPEND MONEY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I need a break anyway, 3 weeks straight, been planning and texting and calling. Everyday sleep at 2am, wake up at 8 latest. Even weekends I wake up latest 10am. Usually 7am. My goodness, I'm like a no-lifer now. ): I don't even get any sources of entertainment. ): I think I need leisure and entertainment soon.

Then again, I'm super happy because I GOT MY BLACKBERRY!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYY. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT SO SO SO SO MUCH :D

kk gtg and do work.
till then!

ARGH

2010-09-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

When I have regrets, I get super frustrated with myself because I never let myself have regrets.
But. FUCK IT, I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE HARDWORKING.

And now, FUCK I HAVE TO BE HARDWORKING.
Okay, no more regrets. Focus on now IVY!

I'll be fine, I'll be alright. I'll be happy later.

FUCK YOU BPHARM, I WILL CONQUER U.

People are flying & I appreciate the fact that my friends DO read my blog as quoted from Audrey, "Errr.You have a blog? So we know la!"

2010-09-08T02:11:00.000+08:00

Ok, I know my title is really LONG. Lol.
Finally a solid get-together with my dancers (: Love you guys and really really miss hanging out like that. It's so fun talking about our secondary school life, how lame and childish we were. The boys we crushed on, the boys we bitch about, the gossips we had, the girls we bitch about and whatnot. Teeheehee.
I'm so sad Audrey's going China ))))))))); really really sad. I will miss you so much dear! Lucky you coming back in January!!

hungry girls. LOL. sorry for making u guys wait. MY SENSE OF DIRECTIONS REALLY CMI.

WENT T LOOK FOR JOANNA IN COURTS @ TM!

LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH :D

20 days!

2010-08-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

Since I last updated of course. Been busy with term tests and then work. Work was so tiring that i MIA-ed for a few days. No update on anyone and nv even call anyone. hahahhaa.

I WENT T TH FLYERS FINALLY. !#$%^&*i( SCARY SHIT. i think i will need some courage (and money) to go up thr again. ;x i was trembling and feeling dizzy up thr pls. anw here are th pics and CREDITS T WAN.

20 bucks for this print! LOL.

the area where i fear most. the curve part of th capsule. i feel like tt part is gonna cave thru anytime.

IS IT ME OR I LOOK LIKE I HAVE WRINKLES?

ok this pic actually freaks me out just looking at it, i'm scared.

LOL @ lyon's face.

all in all nice exp, just tt i was forced at one point t look down -.- oh we managed t catch the yog closing ceremony's fireworks. :D so lucky! and we were almost at the top then, so it was awesome view.

right now, i'm tired...

Been Busy!

2010-08-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

With projects. Like damn no-life and boring please, all I've been blogging about is my projects, or how little I've been sleeping. LOL.

Anyway, finally all the projects are DONE. FUCKING DONE. ;D
Now's time to worry for TERM TEST.

Jonathan my manager deserves a smack for teasing me abt my sneeze. AGAIN.

his handwriting is like crap so yeah. it reads: sneezy.

zzz. anyway been going to town a lot these few days. BAHHHHHH. laptop battery lasts only like 1.5hrs at most, have to keep carrying charger. damn.
Is a laptop battery expensive? Thinking of getting one...

IT'S THE LAST WEEK BABY!

2010-08-02T03:39:00.000+08:00

Yes c'mon Ivy, you can do it. It's the freaking last week already. Everything is ending.

Will work extra hard for term test and score super well. I HOPE AT LEAST.

Still got bloody bpharm to study for ): This is my one and only examinable subject. Sigh. WHY DIDN'T I STUDY HARD THE LAST SEM?!
Oh well, I guess I just have to keep reminding myself that so I study damn hard this time round. Hopefully an A. HOPEFULLY.

Gogo Ivy, soon.

I seem to like encouraging myself a lot.

Anyway did I mention I got medication from doctor for my insomnia? ;\ I really can't take it anymore. Lying down on my bed while being really tired, only to not be able to fall asleep for the next 2-3 hours. IT SUCKS!

SOMEONE TEACH ME?

2010-07-27T01:54:00.000+08:00

How do I block a number on my phone?
Nokia e71! Blocking in the sense that when the person texts or calls me, I won't see the incoming texts/calls. I remember being able to do that on other and older phones. So nowadays new phones cannot do it? zomg.

Need to slp nao nao nao. If not tomorrow cannot wake up for bpharm lecture again. zzz.

I'm happy. Had a nice night, hanged out for a couple of hours w my long-time-no-see friend eating taohuay. Missed ya dude!

WOW

2010-07-23T03:34:00.001+08:00

Been sleeping at 4-5am for the past 3 days. 0.o
Thanks to projects.

zzzz.

Sleep debt again.

ZOMG

2010-07-21T20:09:00.001+08:00

I IS GG.

ANOTHER TIRING DAY FOR ME.
I cancelled tuition to work on m proj, but sigh I'm just too tired. I slept at 4 ytd night doing pre-lab. wthhhhh.
I sure can't sleep tonight alr. oh well.

GG YOU IVY!

Awesome Thursday and Friday! :D

2010-07-09T04:08:00.000+08:00

Short day at school today makes me a happy girl!
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW MAKES ME HIGH. HAHAHAHHAHA.

Supposed to watch soccer at Cheryl's house ytd, in the end, we both just decided to sleep instead of watch. HAHAHA. Went out of her house earlier than her, while she was still asleep cause I had lessons earlier than her. She didn't even know how I left her house. -.-

You lose some, you gain some. Well, I can say I finally have the time to meet up with some friends I haven't seen in a long time (: I guess that's something good.

朋友与情人，你会选择谁？在你们的内心里，朋友重要还是情人重要？你会为了情人而拒绝朋友吗？许多人有了情人之后常常把朋友给忽略了，当情人离开时才发觉身边的朋友都已经不在了。。。爱情与友情比较，哪一个经（？）得起考验？

今天跟 Cheryl 讨论起我们各自的母亲。我们的母亲性格相差很多，处理事的方法不同，教育或管教儿女的方式也不一样，但差别中还是有个共同点。有点私人，不方便就那么说出来。谈着谈着，我们说起了我们各自的家庭，谈到了各自家里的出现问题，家家有本难念的经对吧？不过说到底，我们的终结是我们都得对家里的每一个人好一点。。。因为是最亲的，所以很多事都当成理所当然的，对他们的态度也是最差的，因为认为他们永远都不会离开，不管怎么样都还是会一直在我们身边。。
如果你没失去过一个跟你很亲的人，你是不会了解那种突然发现自己跟亲爱的人再也没有可以相处的机会的感受，想对他好一点也不能了。当那个人已经不在时，我们才懂得珍惜。。。人都是这样不是吗？失去了才懂得珍惜。为什么人总是学不会趁现在还来得及，珍惜身边的家人呢？

我承认，以前我对母亲的态度恶劣，我对自己的行为感到尴尬。我已经在试着改变，慢慢改变，毕竟，我小时候跟她和亲，为何现在不可以呢？（：

你的中文程度好吗？

2010-07-06T23:12:00.001+08:00

记得以前我的华文还不算差，应为父母都是说华语的。好才没有因为父母不说英语而影响了英文程度。还记得以前小五，小六时，华文考试或测验都能拿到几乎满分的成绩，如果现在叫我做小五，小六的测验题，我可能只是刚刚及格而已。

看着我学生的华文作业本子，突然觉得好陌生，好像好久好久都没接触华文了。不喜欢这种感觉，对华文陌生，不大清楚答案是什么，以前的我不是这样的。以前，华文作业对我来说简直是易如反掌，现在连自己都对自己的答案有疑惑。真的时太久没接触华文了。

是时候读多一点华文小说，报章等等了。
我喜欢华文，那么多人憎恨华文，华文程度又差，所以对自己的华文程度，成绩感到骄傲。至少我的中文好，英文也不差。。。但为了保持水准得自修一下了哦。

TWICE IN ONE WEEK, SAME DAY, SAME TIME (well, almost)

2010-07-05T14:51:00.000+08:00

Last last Saturday, while at my doorstep looking for my keys, I realised they were not in my bag. HOW SIAN. It was like a wonderful day and I ended it with such an unpleasant incident. So I stoned at my doorstep with G, knocking desperately on the door. I didn't have Uncle's number and everyone was asleep. -.- Luckily there's Cheryl.Lol.

Last Saturday, meaning to say 2 days back, same thing happen again. At about the same time. past midnight too. Just that this time it was later cause I ended work at 1am. AND I WAS ALONE THIS TIME ROUND. So I knocked., I called Uncle, guess what, he off-ed his phone. -.- I called Cheryl, but it wasn't convenient with her then and I called like so many people. Everyone seemed to sleep early that day. Even those people that I know always sleep late one. Except for Gina la, she was awake, but it wasn't convenient at her side too. But she did accompany me thru sms till I found someone. :D

THANK GOD FOR YVONNE. ;D
SO I CRASHED HER PLACE! My saviour man. I owe her one big one.

I SWEAR I WILL KEEP CHECKING FOR MY KEYS.
Oh both incident happened for the same reason. I left my keys hanging at the padlock and went off. Uncle took it in. How smart. This proves that I'm still v not used to having to use keys to go out of the house.
WHAT WHAT WHAT. MY PREVIOUS HOUSE DON'T HAVE GATE, NO NEED KEYS TO GO OUT ONE OK.

ANYWAYYYYY. WHO'S FREE THIS SATURDAY? HANG OUT W ME! I'm like planless this Saturday(Night). HHAHAA.

))))))))))))))));

2010-06-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

PAY IS SO LITTLE. I CAN EAT GRASS. REALLY.

240 HOW TO SURVIVE ONE MONTH U TELL ME. YOU TELL ME! SOMEMORE I FINISH PAYING THINGS, I NO NEED ALR TO EAT ALR. LET ME LIST IT OUT FOR YOU.

100 - DENTAL
100 - MAKE IC
28 - MAKE EZ-LINK
50 - BUY CONCESSION
80 - PAY PHONE BILLS

TELL ME HOW MUCH LEFT? IN FACT IS NEGATIVE AMT PLS.WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT DAY IS IT? DO YOU KNOW?!?!?!

2010-06-29T23:50:00.001+08:00

It's Tuesday CURRENTLY! In 20mins time, IT WILL BE WEDNESDAY!

SO YOU ASK WHAT'S UP ON WED?

I TELL YOU WHAT'S UP!
MY PAY'S COMING! I'll be camping in the ibanking website and when midnight comes, I WILL CHECK MY PAY.

We were so broke that we can't afford to watch a movie, want to play lan, everywhere is full -.-

otw to plaza sing. Did I mention there was Jap metal rock or black metal open air concert? It.was.horrifying.

the uncle jealous we taking photos.

WHAT A BORING SET OF PICTURES. HAHAHAHHA.

SUNDAY HAS ENDED ):

2010-06-28T01:12:00.000+08:00

Idk if I should look forward or dread a new week ahead. There are things which I look forward too, there are also things which I don't want to happen, or go to. I don't want Wednesday to come because it's freaking looooooooong day again. 6 hrs lab, 2 hrs lect and 1 hr of break. GAY. Then again, after Wednesday, I have a easy Thursday and Friday. Pretty much like a 4 days weekend. Heh.

I'm going to get my tuition fees this Thursday! Yay! Something to look forward to? Then... This week is the 2nd week of something I'm waiting for. Teehee! Can't wait for this week to be over though tmr is just Monday -.-

OH. The highlight of this week is MY LONG AWAITED PAY IS COMING IN ON WEDNESDAY. I CAN'T WAIT. I'm broke like a cow please.

FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY!

2010-06-25T02:21:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for friday to be over because I'll be working till 1am. -.-

Saturday 12pm got tuition somemore. sure shag like mad. I've got not much idea on how to make student understand math. SIGH.

Anw, the main point on sat is mahjong. Not confirmed, but YAY.

Yawns.

2010-06-23T03:30:00.000+08:00

Can't believe i did work till so late. I don't remember the last time I was this hardworking 0.o

I studied for GMP okay! I spent an hr plus trying to figure out the calculations with CTLL on the phone with me. Tough mental work. LOL. Now I feel like the P5 girl I'm tutoring.
Looooooooong day tmr and I have to give her tuition at 7pm. I hope Mr Wallace is nice enough and understanding enough to postpone test to thursday if not I'll have to change tuition time again. Sigh sigh sigh. From Monday change to Tuesday, change to Wednesday, if change again, I'm going to get my tuition fee at a later date. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Right. I saw my favorite boy today and that makes me a happy girl (:
Goodnight y'all!

CWTSY!

2010-06-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

None of you will know what that means! It's my secret with a special someone (:
I hope tomorrow comes soon, but I don't want tomorrow to end because I am still super unprepared for cGMP. OH NOES.

(about 11 more days at least)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

2010-06-20T17:25:00.002+08:00

Hey dad, I miss you.
Happy father's day though. I hope you are happy where ever you are.

I miss you and I think about you almost everyday. I dream of you at least once a week too.

I miss my dad )':

Altogether (:

2010-06-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

ASTONS + LATE NIGHT MOVIE!
Went to Astons after a really long while. I missed to food there! :D

MAKE YOU HUNGRY RIGHT!

SLURP. Idk slurp what cause no soup. ;P

AFTER MOVIE!

camwhore skills fail.

MY HAIR LOOKS THICK AND LONG. THANK YOU THANK YOU.

PRESENTS!

I reached plaza sing and g thrusted me this and ran away with wanting. So the ans to the clue is LJS

In LJS, I saw Joanna and she passed me this! You should know where is this. :D

At The Cathay, I saw Jeanette! Who passed me this and say maybe? I think very near arh.. that hotel. LOL.

At Hotel Rendevous, I saw Ying Hui! Quite shock but yeah. I'm supposed to go to POMO! I walked the wrong direction -.- lol.

So at POMO, I saw AUDDDD. She passed me this and asked if the rest gave me hints. hahah.

At Park Mall, I see Xinyu!!!! Golf balls -.- Mr Bean in Douby Ghaut Exchange!

And finally last stop, WANTING!!!

I seriously have no idea where to go. I stood there discussing with her, she also don't tell me. So I just anyhow walk. LOL. And I took nearly half hour to walk from Douby to Timbre can. ROAR.

My real presents. heh (: THANKS GUYS!

I miss you G, please come back soon. ):
Oh btw, my eyebrow piercing closed -.- cause I went for a photoshoot, they insist I have to take it out if not clients will reject. So no choice. ): SAD MAX. It closed within 2 hrs anw, my photoshoot was a good 3 hrs plus. Zomg. I was so sleepy then already.

WAIT WAIT WAIT. I HATE WAITING! ):

LAST PIC OF MYSELF! My rare zilian times. MY HAIR LOOKS LONG AND THICK AGAIN! yay!

PRESENTS! + Swensens on JUNE 5!

2010-06-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

All the 'rubbish' presents. There's a wide variety, I haven't taken a picture of them individually, but I will soon, cause it's really rather funny. HAHA. The most bottom pink thing there is a glove sleeve. I have no idea why they decided to get it. LOL. It's so ah ma looking zomg! THANK YOU GUYS FOR NOT MAKING ME WEAR THAT ON TT DAY ITSELF IN TIMBRE. I was kinda fearing that you all might ask me to wear it. 0.o The best is my 'ribbit ribbit' HEHE.

My real present! Charles and Keith's purse/hangbag :D Oh the yellow plastic bag inside also another present. Extremely Chocolately Mini Rings from Marks and Spencers.

Once again, I celebrate my birthday with the two most beloved people in my life. As like last year. Haha. Cheryl commented, "Eh! Last year also 3 of us!" Heh. :D So it was supposed to be just a lunch, then G sneakily ordered me a birthday ice-cream. Teehee. I was surprised, for real and almost wanted to tell the waiter we didn't order that. LOL.

MY BIRTHDAY ICE-CREAM ;D

This woman. tsk tsk tsk. Take pic w me so hard, but take alot of pic w bf.. tsk tsk.
HAHA.

THAT'S ALL! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL TANG LI LI!!!!!! I'M GLAD TO HAVE MET YOU, I'M GLAD WE STUCK TOGETHER THROUGHOUT THIS THREE YEARS. CHEERS TO NEARLY 3 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP AND MORE TO COME. I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH :D

2010-06-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

LUMBERJACK GOES TIMBERRRRRRRRRRRRRR(TIMBRE)!!!!!

2010-06-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

So I had my birthday celebration at Timbre.(:
Ok wait, I'm simplifying it way too much. I was to walk about the whole Douby Ghaut area to get my clues to go to other places where I get more clues to go to more places. Final destination is of course timbre, but I had no idea what does lumberjack says. In fact, I don't really have much idea who/what he is -.-

So.... I had to call G to ask where is it. HAHAHA. Sorry, I'm a direction-idiot. I couldn't even walk from Hotel Rendevous to Parkmall or was it POMO. Either one, I walked the wrong direction. LOL.

PIZZAAAAAAAAAA AT TIMBRE IS AWESOMEZXZXZXZ.

(:

Yinghui!

Idk what are they laughing about.

I'll upload my photos of my presents (Both the rubbish and the REAL ones) together in the next post. I HAVEN'T UNPACK THEM YET!

Special Thanks to AUDREY HO, JOANNA, XINYU, YINGHUI WANTING, JEANETTE AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST G (:

Thanks Wenyi and CTLL for wishing me at the 2359 mark, right before my birthday ends.
Thanks to everyone else who wished me over sms or on FB or both altogether. You guys are the sweetest. (:
Thanks mom for meeting me and giving me my angbao :D and Thanks to my aunt for her angbao too. teehee!
Thanks sis for your hp so I can use an unspoiled one. Maybe one day we will live together again.

2 am

2010-06-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Being jolted awake to the sound of my phone ringing is not a nice feeling. GAH.

The main point is, it's NOTHING IMPT. NTH LIFE-THREATENING
wtffffffffff.

as if i tell you where can get 2nd hand laptop at 2am, you can go there get it immediately.
seriously?
IS IT THAT URGENT?

"I thought you haven't sleep"
Not an excuse good enough. It's only polite not to call in the middle of the night.
Text is fine, if the person nv reply OBVIOUSLY SLPING RIGHT! Still dare call half hr ltr.
Dude, I kn that's just an excuse.
Don't try anything funny. GTFO my life.

19

2010-06-06T02:16:00.002+08:00

Gonna officially celebrate my bday tmr. (:

Happy Birthday to myself! (:

SO PISSED W MYSELF!

2010-06-03T16:48:00.001+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Why oh why.
Why am I so lazy ):

woof

2010-06-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

i'm loving my flopsy soft toy dog. for the first time ever in my life i'm hugging a soft toy to sleep.

oh no. I don't do that when I'm young. heh.

I DID IT.

2010-05-31T03:12:00.000+08:00

Not that painful now that it's over but the process coupled w nervousness is quite nerve-wrecking. But yeah, bearable! I teared a little still though. Very little. Not even enough to form a drop of tear. HEHE.

Have to take care of it and be gentle. It doesn't hurt anymore when I don't touch it or raise my eyebrow, so there's a high chance I might forget it's there and rub my face the usual way. Confirm I will scream. LOL. Ear piercing the healing process seems to hurt more than this. I remember my ear piercings always get infected -.-

OH OH. I HAVE A GIANT SOFT TOY DOG TO HUG TO SLEEP! YAYYYY. HAPPY TTM! Bought at John Little Expo sale. Hehe.
I.need.shorts.

I'm done being a fish and a bird. HEHE. Those who went to the show, I hope you all enjoyed it (:
Next saturday is NDP practice already! My birthday too. So... not celebrating that day. Next day I guess.

DRAINED.

2010-05-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

Both physically and mentally.
Slept only 3 hrs and went early in the morning to expo for rehearsal already. Muscle aches are preventing me from walking. I'm hobbling especially when there are steps.
I FELL ASLEEP WHILE THE MAKE-UP ARTIST WAS PUTTING ON MAKE-UP FOR ME HAHAHAHAA.
I kept nodding off then he had to keep lifting my chin up. He ask me open eyes I never hear I stone for awhile, then open then huh him. LOL.

Why is it that my intentions are misunderstood? ): I did it because I cared because I loved you as a friend. Sigh. I'm sad I'm disappointed but I can't do anything.
I cried while eating with my mom just now. She suggested I go see Dr Chia for a solution to my insomnia, but somehow I don't want cause I'm afraid I'll be prescribed with tranquilizer. BAH.

Forgiveness. It doesn't matter if it seems unfair. Bearing hatred is painful. I'm to let go. Says mom.
Shall keep this in mind.

I really don't know what to do regarding *****. I suppose that's call insecurity. BAH.

Projects. The motivation to keep me awake.

2010-05-28T03:39:00.001+08:00

I'm amazed I can stay up till this time. Not cause I'm playing games or chatting online. BUT DOING PROJECT. WOW.

I'm amazed with myself. I'm thinking about the other dancers who are sleeping soundly now.. BAHHHHHHHH.

TOMORROW 9AM REHEARSAL.
1st show TOMORROW! OMG EXCITED MAX. HEHEHEHE.

SOME PEOPLE JUST MAKES ME LMAO

2010-05-26T15:54:00.000+08:00

Why are there such shameless people around? I don't get it. Or are they plain stupid that they do not get the hint which is not even a hint already. RIGHT IN YOUR FACE SAY NO, still want to insist your way. Got face not? Or you think forcing will make things better.

I'm actually glad to be cut out of those people's life. Be it I'm the one who's doing it or that person. Like waste my life to have this kind of people in it. -.-

I've also come to know that there are people who can be really psychotic and lame. Why do people like to cause trouble to other people's life? I don't understand. So much time meh? To go through all the trouble. -.-

really don't understand AT ALL.

THE WORLD WE LIVE IN IS SO COMPLICATED FULL OF WEIRD PEOPLE AND HYPOCRITES

2010-05-25T22:47:00.003+08:00

I shall NOT elaborate further. But I can only say
I WON'T TRY TO BE THE GOOD GUY ANYMORE. DOESN'T PAY.
Doesn't pay never mind, I GOT SHITS.

FUCK YOU.

DEVIL'S POST!

2010-05-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

I'M DAMN PISSED. DAMN DAMN PISSED. I LOST MY SPECS. I CAN'T FIND THEM AT HOME. I'm damn sure it's at home. I came back home on sunday morning WITH my specs, then I took them out and wore contacts for dance.
So, when I came back from dance, I showered, took out contacts and headed straight to bed. Did I head straight to bed after showering?
YES I DID!

argh. SPECS PLEASE APPEAR. -.-

OH. I don't wanna be 19 ): nooooooooo. Anw I have NDP pract on tt day. so yeah. no celebration.

My next post will be the devil's post. THE 666TH POST. NEXT POST.

2010-05-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

I guess the devil's in me. Making me having awful thoughts and thoughts that make me unhappy and telling me that I'm screwed so bad I should die.

I seriously have a strong urge to end everything.
Insomnia every night's not helping. It just makes me think more and more and more. So I don't get much sleep. Lack of sleep lack of motivation. I am so screwed. ):

I'm tired of juggling work and school. I don't wanna work anymore, but I have no choice. I'm working so little now that I think next month I'll survive on eating bread everyday.
TYVM.

Excuse me, may I know where's the reset button in Life?

2010-05-19T04:21:00.000+08:00

A rewind button would do too, but a rewind would mean the same thing will happen again so, a rewind + erase button. Someone tell me where is it? I need it badly now.

I admit there are regrets in things I've done and I absolutely hate regretting because what's done been done and there's nothing I can do to have it undone. However... I'm glad it happened too, cause it opened up my eyes and it made more sense out of me. It may be a bad thing, but I believe there's a good in every bad thing that happens. I've noticed/realized/seen the good thing already (: so I'm not that regretful after all. Just a bit. Everyone should look at the better side of every bad thing that has happened, so life wouldn't be full of regrets.

Times' tough now, but I saw a phrase several times especially during these tough times that "Tough times don't last, tough man does." SO IMMA BE TOUGH (: Mom always tells me that however heart-wrenching, however heartbreaking, however bad something can be, it'll pass. Just keep telling yourself it'll pass it'll pass and all will be fine. AFTER ALL... Time still moves and life still goes on. (: So yeah, I swear I will survive this period and make sure I come out a better person.

THERE'S ONLY ONE THING I CAN'T TAKE. Sudden change of attitude. If you have a problem, tell me. Don't attitude me. No one will understand the sudden attitude change and if I don't even deserve the chance to know what I've done wrong, I guess you're not worth much a friend either. If my intention has been misunderstood, then I can only say too bad for me. I've done all I can to protect a friend, and in the end I'm to lose that friend, I guess we're not fated and that a person trying to be good will never be appreciated. So WHATEVER.
I love you as a friend, but it was one-sided. I feel really hurt with the sudden distance you cast between us and I've tried getting you back, but my efforts seem to be hitting the wall and getting no effect but hurting myself more. What happened? I have no idea. Dear friend, I miss you as a friend and I would like the old you back. Maybe you haven't realized, but you've changed a lot. You've distanced from us. I don't even know you anymore. You seemed so cold. It's so saddening.
Please come back. I miss you. ):

Try standing here.

2010-05-14T02:20:00.000+08:00

I have no idea what to do. It's hard as it is and I can't do anything about it. I guess it's karma. All my life I've been rather suay, so I guess nothing's changing. I chose it and now I'm paying for it. I'm resigned to being suay. Suay cause I'm gullible and suay cause I'm easily influenced in some matters.

If only someone can make things better, I just want to be there again. One wrong step really cause a long chain of negative after-effects.
I think it's worth this struggle. I think it's worth this fight. I think it's worth the wait. I think you're worth it. BUT CAN IT HAPPEN? If it can't, why should I continue fighting? Why should I fight a already lost battle? Will the battle end and peace be there?
DEFINE PEACE.

Apparently I can't make everyone happy. I can't satisfy everyone and have myself being happy. So impossible.

People like to think they know a lot of stuff and just talk about it, but they know no shit.
Human's nature, who can I blame?
If you think you know a lot, come talk to me.
I'm sick of misjudgings and criticisms especially when people around me are being misjudged.

How the world works, I don't get. How some people are, I don't get either.
Cruelty of the world...

IP MAN TWO TIMES

2010-05-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

I watched Ip Man again. HAHA. I just watched it yesterday. Yes it's tt good to me. Idk, makes me so honoured to be CHINESE. HAHAHAHHA.

I want everything I want in movies. I'm such a fiction lover. I watched Harry Potter, I wished I could do magic and I have a wand that actually exists and work. I watched Twilight I was obsessed with them and kept chanting I wanna be a vampire. SO COOL. Then I watched Avatar I wanna be an avatar. HAHAHA. Now I watched Ip Man, I want to learn Wing Chun. HAHAHHA. Ok fine, tt's not fiction BUT I WANT! My Aikido has all apparently gone to waste. 6 years... argh.
Sometimes I wish I can continue with what I learnt last time, and I asked myself why didn't I continue? ):

Really wish I can continue with Aikido. Argh.

When one scoop of Ice-cream just ISN'T ENOUGH.

2010-05-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

I finished half a pint or even more than that of ice-cream from Ice Cream Chef just 2 hours ago. I swear it's awesome comfort food. Awesome company too (:
Things are getting slightly better, I'm slightly less depressed already and...

DAMN IT TOMORROW OR SHOULD I SAY IT IS MONDAY ALR.

DAMN... ):

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY (:

2010-05-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

DID YOU SPEND AWESOME TIME WITH YOUR AWESOME MOTHER?
I DID!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMSIE.
LOVES FROM YOUR AWESOME DAUGHTER!

FACEBOOK SPAM IS FUN. OK THIS IS REAL SHIT. I SHOULD BE SLEEPING. GOODNIGHT YOU ALL.

2010-05-07T01:20:00.001+08:00

Forever & Always

2010-05-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

Don't bother about the title. It's just a song that was playing on my itunes. By BFMV fyi..

I guess I've been pretty weird in school tdy.. Hmmm. I lost motivation for everything. I feel like quitting school even. I think cause I'm tired.Actually I've no idea what's so tiring, but yeah I'm kinda sick of the things going on in my life right now. More on juggling school and work. If I don't work, I don't have money. I want to just be a real student who doesn't need to work. Seriously it's been so long since I'm fully studying instead of half studying and working. Actually the whole of my poly life uh. I'm quite sick of it. It's not the workplace that's making me sick. I enjoy work when I'm at work because of my working environment and my colleagues. The combination of school and work just drains everything out of me. When I see people who are not working during weekdays and have allowance and yet they say tired, I'd love to scream and ask WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TIRED WHEN YOU'RE NOT WORKING AND YOU GET ALLOWANCE JUST LIKE THAT.
From this church camp I went a year plus back, I learned that 'life's never fair". I understand this point, BUT I CAN'T TAKE IT DOWN. HAHAHA. Ok, maybe not that serious, but I just think that human just don't appreciate what they have now.

Fine.. then people will start saying I should appreciate the fact that I can attend school and fit enough to work blah blah blah. YES I KNOW.. I'M JUST COMPLAINING about people who complain about being tired when they don't have to work + study + get allowance. GRRR.
I really don't know what my mind wants. I know I have no choice but to do my stuff yet I can't get started. I JUST CAN'T.

BEING BROKE IS JUST DAMN SUCKY I SWEAR. Now I can't wait for May to end so I get my next pay. Then again it'd be my birthday soon. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I don't wanna be 19 nononononono. I'll hide at home or maybe work that day. ;x

MY INTERNET IS BACK SO I AM BACK TOO. TYVM.

2010-05-04T02:05:00.000+08:00

Surviving w/o internet is hard. VERY HARD. I'm sorry, but I gotta say, I'm an "internetolic". Yes, I came up with tt term. It does not exist, neither does it make sense. (:

So I finally paid my bills of 250bucks(to get my internet back) AND THAT LEAVES ME PENNILESS. I'm poorer than a goat for a goat can survive on grass which is free but I can't. I mean I can eat grass, but it's not exactly someone alright up there would do. Then again I'm insane on times and yeah maybe when the need arises, I'll have to depend on grass. *looks helplessly at grass that's anywhere on the street*

I was super pissed when I was told that I HAVE to pay the full sum in order to get my service back. You see, my internet and phone line are under the same acc., thus in order to get service back, I gotta pay both in full sum. I wanted to pay just that internet portion to get my net back, but noooooooooo.... I asked and they responded saying also won't activate the line for me one. No choice but to pay everything. The next thing I did was go to the bank and check out my balance. GG. 20bucks left. Happy or what. -.-
Got into this extreme mood swing that left me crying one moment and the next laughing like a mad woman. I couldn't control myself which is bad bad bad. Sorry for pinching you the whole day and annoying the crap out of you. You still tried to cheer me up, soothe me despite being snapped at for no reason at all. I'm sorry. ):

Been really emotionally unstable this 2 weeks and I know it. Crying sorta became a almost daily routine but it felt good to let it out. So many things on my mind that I just can't help but cry and I hate crying. I HATE CRYING. Even though no one's watching but I hate hate hate that process. Oh, I cried in public though. In Popeyes. HAHA. Tears blurred my vision as I tried to hold them back, finally they fell down in big blobs and I had to keep my head down so people won't think I'm some psychotic depressed bitch who cries while waiting for her food.

So many people, so many factors against me I'm so discouraged. It doesn't help knowing that probably even my own friends are against it. I have no one to blame but myself as I made that choice and now I'm sucking up the consequences. It's depressing knowing how humans can be so deceiving/hypocritical/scheming/dishonest/sometimes just an asshole.
I can't forgive myself while knowing that there are people out there that aren't forgiving me yet. I can be more forgiving towards others but not myself. It's harder to forgive myself than anyone. I'm sorry I'm being a bitch to you, but I feel that you deserve it. So many times, I naively believed you, naively thought to myself perhaps he's really remorseful, perhaps I should just give one more chance. YOU BLEW EVERY SINGLE CHANCE I GAVE, EVERY SMALL DAB OF HOPE I HAD FOR YOU. Thinking you had changed for the better FINALLY, was a stupid thought.
ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY, this sentence is true to a certain extent only because we all know A LEOPARD NEVER CHANGES ITS SPOTS.
Do you not feel ashamed? Do you not feel remorseful? It amazes me that you can still go on and create more problems and even act like it's fine. For a guy your age... you are omg-unimaginably-immature-beyond-measures. SO STOP ACTING LIKE YOU'RE SO OH-SO-SERIOUS DEEP IN THOUGHTS AND DAMN MATURE.

Apparently it seems like you have your own theory about God. It freaking amuses me and pisses christians off? God didn't plan all this as-you-claimed-punishment for you. YOU CHOSE IT -.- so stop God this God that.

Okay.. I went way off track, but yeah so the point is I still can't forgive myself. As I reflect, the moment it happened, I lost myself and lost sight of the one that really cared and loved. I got lost in my own world of heart-pumping adrenaline rush and it blurred my vision. From then, I no longer see logic nor sense. I was possessed by insanity. THANK GOD IT DIDN'T LAST LONG. Though it's a long enough period to cause pain and hurt to others, long enough to conjure up extremely negative impressions of me, long enough for my own friends to steer away from me, long enough for me to hate myself.
I'm really really thankful that I have some of my close friends walking with me the whole time and I'm thankful that you don't hate me. I just need more time.
I need to find myself back. I feel it coming back slowly as I'm with you, slowly guiding me back on track, but I can't forgive myself so easily as you forgave me. I'm so so so amazed and embarrassed that you forgave me despite what I've done. It's like you're so generous, candid and open to this whole incident.

Ivy please come back, I need you. I miss you.

MOSQUITO BITES... THE NEW SEX!!!!!!

2010-04-26T02:10:00.000+08:00

I have about up to 20 bites on me. -.- I have one right smack in the middle of my neck which is so annoying. People who laugh at me will get one at the neck too. HAHAHA.

Sometimes things can be very confusing. EXTREMELY CONFUSING. I'm so messed up I don't know what to do anymore. I need time. TIME. But school's timetable's being a bitch, so I can't do much about it. We have our own lives and I want it that way.
I don't want to interfere into your life again seeing how you're hanging out with your friends again.

I'm going to be so busy with school and work I don't think I have time for any other things anymore. Sigh. Oh dance. AHHHHHH NAPHA. DIE.

Anyway, my leg's swollen now. So annoying. ): and yes it hurts quite a bit. I'll see the doc asap, but I need monehhhh. I hope it's nothing serious.. I just hope it won't be fractured. THAT ONE REALLY GG.

ICC IS LOVE. :D I FINISHED ABOUT HALF A PINT OF ICE CREAM WHOOOOOOOOOO. Come come, Ivy bring you go ICC. It is awesome poresome ice cream place. :D

OK ME IS SLEEP NAOOO.
OH.LJ IS WORKING AGAIN ALR! ;D
still annoyed with all the bites. itchy max.

I FEEL LIKE DISAPPEARING

2010-04-23T14:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I think about everything I have gone through, wrong choices I have made, things I never do when I could, I feel like I'm such a failure. I could have done so much better but I always realise too late.
It hurts to know yet I force myself through all that process.
Right now I have no idea wth am I rambling about... I just feel like disappearing from planet Earth. I feel like being hidden so no one can find me, so no one knows where to find me, so I don't have to attend school, so I don't have to have qualifications to achieve what I want in life, so I can break down and bawl all I want w/o giving anyone a reason. Just so I can cry actually and no need to explain to anyone why am I crying.

If I'm gone... Who'd be the one looking for me? Who'd be thinking where I am? Who'd be wondering what I'm doing?
Sometimes I think no one. Maybe for awhile... then I'll slowly be forgotten.
WTH IS WRONG WITH ME OMG. LOL.
my post makes me want to laugh.

ORIENTATION CLOSING CEREMONY

2010-04-23T02:57:00.001+08:00

So the bests of everything are out! Very expected, MEGANATHAN GOT BEST LOG! :D I dumped my whole friendship bands at home, forgot to bring out. LOL.
Everything ended at 10! Supposed to end at like 9 then do cheers and all but apparently it was so over-ran, the freshies had to be released home. ): Really really the end of orientation already.
Friends grew closer, new friends were made, new bonds were formed.. I think this is the reason why I still feel like joining next year. Oh well. We'll see about that.

Supposed to eat, end up all of us just drank and sit there talk cock. Slacked around(damn awesome to be living near, don't have to bother about transport. hehehehe) and now I'm home :D waiting for my hair to dry. -.- Shouldn't have even washed it in the first place so I can sleep, BUT IT'S SO DAMN WARM. RARRRRRRR.

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I told you you'd get over soon. I can see now that you have. Actually I don't know what am I supposed to be feeling. I thought it'd be nothing, but it's not nothing. I have no freaking idea how to explain what I'm feeling. ARGH. Sometimes I really feel like extracting the emotion part of my brain out, so I'd be emotionless. Eh wait, then I won't have any emotion at all, I won't even know how to laugh. -.- Ok cannot.

I sorta expected it already, knowing you, but a bit wrong the situation. Wrong as in the way I dreamed about it. I ACTUALLY DREAMED ABOUT IT YES. HAHAHHA.

EVERYTHING HERE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. HAHAHAHA. LJ is not loading on my com I have no idea why, IT'S DAMN PISSING. -.-

Now I keep wondering is it 我想太多。。。Are you feeling what I'm feeling? Do you think about it like I do? WTF IS WRONG W ME GAHHHHHH. I'm supposed to restrain myself from any feelings.

IVY YOU CAN DO IT. RESTRAIN. BE THE STRONG-HEADED IVY YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN.

OH I'M SO PISSED

2010-04-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

WHY IS PHOTOBUCKET AND LIVEJOURNAL REFUSING TO LOAD ON MY COM?!
Since ytd and it seems fine for other people!!!

Spent my spin bucks today w CTLL, Amy & Gina. Slacked awhile and now I'm home already. I'm still in holiday mood. Being home early seems so.... strange.

I'm quite happy today ((((((((((((((((((;

MY LEG IS HURTING LIKE A BITCH. SO IS MY SHOULDER(this is a little less bitchier).

2010-04-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

Napha's in a month's time and I haven't ran in such a long time I think I will fail it. NOOOOOOOOOOO. I WANT MY 11MINS 2.4!!! I shall start running again tmr. I SWEAR!

Mr Jxxxxx, you ought to pick up your feet and move on. Start afresh and stop bothering people. If it's over, IT'S OVER. Set a goal and work towards that goal and stop disrupting people's life. Oh, and stop blaming people. That's one the major issues you have, you love pushing blame to other people somehow. I suggest you stop pointing fingers and reflect on yourself more.
I've been really nice and I'm sorry if I've turned super bitchy now. Considering the way I've been treated, I think I'm not bitch enough yet.
I can be nice when I'm being treated fairly and I'm usually nice ok! When I'm not, see the worst of me. I've yet to show the worst anyway.
Finally, sorry to say this, but you've been a real asshole. You destroyed chances I gave, NO COMMENTS -.-

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YAY!!! JW THREW AWAY THE CIGARETTE AFTER HE SAW MY MSG ASKING HIM TO DON'T SMOKE. ;D Lighted up already some more. First person I see that can throw away after lighting it up. Normally I ask people stop also no one care ): SOOOOOOOO... CONGRATS! u did it! ;D I was smiling like an idiot in the bus. hahahaha. Seems like I always do weird things in bus uhhhh. ;x
OH ANYWAY, CALL ME SHIFU. I TAUGHT YOU HOW TO PLAY MINESWEEPER FLAGS. HAHAHHAHA.

aneewayyyy... I WANT TO WATCH JU-ON.

oh my angel is shawn. lol. i got nothing from him cause i was told he's v busy. ha. I fated to have cmi angels as Hon says. Last year howard don't kn me do nothing also. Letter also super weird and random. -.-

I HAVE PICS BUT ME IS LAZY.

SO YEAH. GLHF.

OH MY TIMETABLE NOT TT BAD ACTUALLY.

*note to self: buy Eh Lou Vair Rah Gel*

I lost faith I think. I feel like I have a phobia, I feel like I don't deserve it anymore. Cheryl's right, I haven't met one that isn't a jerk/who won't take me for granted/really like me for who I am. And guess what, I'm disgusted with it like how she is about it too. I have no idea why, but it just hit me. Right now, I'll push away any feelings that I have, BUT I CANNOT CONTROL MY FEELINGS. MY BRAIN CONTROLS MY FEELINGS... SO.... I HATE MY BRAIN?! AHHH.

Well, usually it's always one-sided for my case so I think I shall just wait till this feeling fade off. First time, I face this situation. gahhhhh. Cheryl said it doesn't matter though. Yeah la actually, it doesn't AHHHHH I DON'T KNOW.... I've always been suay... So I guess yeah... Nothing will happen. Sigh. I'm immuned to it alread.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MODULES I AM TAKING EVEN THOUGH I ATTENDED THE LECTURES. 0.O

2010-04-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT RETARDED I CAN READ, NO NEED TO READ OFF THE NOTES. WASTE MY TIME AND MAKES ME WANT TO SLEEP.

THIS IS THE END OF MY BLOG POST WHICH SUMMARIZES MY DAY. ;D

EVERYONE LOVES ME TYVM. BEING RANDOM CAUSE I AM BORED TOO.
CAPS IS AWESOME. I LIKE TO TYPE IN CAPS.

AWESOME WEEK

2010-04-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

It's been a really really awesome week of orientation. In the sense of having fun with everyone. Freshies were dead as usual so there's nothing much to talk about. Oh, but they were all alright at telematch. I hope everyone had fun at Tower Defense. Wheeee.

CHEERS TO AS FOR WINNING CHEER COMP FOR THE 4TH YEAR ;D

Clearing up the mess was fun too. haha. oh dragonboat suck balls. HAHAHAHA. ;x Had random mahjong session, random movie, random pool session. I like. :D

SCHOOL LATER! ME IS SLEEP. YAY. actually no yay, cause there's apel tmr. -.-

woot woot

2010-04-13T12:02:00.001+08:00

me is tomato now. me will update soon. me is at cheryl's house. me is going to eat now.

HAVE FUN AT WEEK 0 PPL. :D

MY LIFE'S BEEN RATHER HAPPENING.

2010-04-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

Sooooooo... after rebel that day, it was school day on Thursday. Went around school to pick up cardboard like Garang Guni. Well, not me actually... I was there snapping pictures of them doing it. HAHA. I'm spared from the picking?
All pics credit to Zul for uploading it. Most were taken by me. HAHA. V fun leh, play with his camera. It's heavy and expensive, a bit stress carrying it around. LOL.
All the stuff we were/they were doing before becoming garang guni men & women.

part of the maze :D

the mess outside

notice faris's head behind the ladder.

shreds

-.-"'

self-timer shot. I took a good 5mins to figure out where to find the timer. LOL.

meeting about LT Decor

YASEEN ADAM

so it was collecting the unwanted materials by others time!

first stop: BOOKSHOP!

Yaseen wasn't helping at all! eat only!

CLASSIC OR WHAT. DISKETTE LEH!

best garang guni ever

Zul and his 'criminal tag'

stupid yaseen again. lol.

As you can see, we were all really very hardworking in getting the stuff. HAHA.
Back to the classrooms! and.... back at the maze..

making stones.

more stones as you can see.

yes if you realise, we are all sucking lollipops. lol.

So i left shortly after this to meet ling ;D chicken rice at far east was awesome. woot woot.
Friday was work in the morning. Then idk what's after that alr. Can't rmb. I know I was super bored and so after talking and discussing with kw, we decided to meet up. super random. at like 10plus.
Went powerhouse see queue, and back to vivo cinema like 4 times. HAHAHA. in the end toss coin to decide. Watched Rec 2.
OHOH, you guys know it's like the 2nd part of the show Quarantine? After the ending was so abrupt. I don't think I should do spoiler here la hor. But! I swear it's damn gross. Urgh.
Anw after the movie it was 1plus near 2, so we went back to powerhouse there. Debating between boiler and ph, in the end toss coin again. Ph. LOL.

Yes, went powerhouse in the end. tequilla shot, flaming lambo... Flaming lambo taste like listerine meh. LOL. Home at 8plus? Slept the whole day away. Ok, not the whole day, went church with cheryl and had a great time :D
In the end went mahjong at Mike's hse with Jiawei after much discussion (again) after reaching home. LOL. ahhhh. lost money ): no good no good. 23 bucks leh! ): reached home at 11plus on sunday morning. OMG.
Super shagged ttm. The next few hours was the most idk-how-to-put-into-words time of my life.

I found my courage, thank god for that courage. I'm glad I did it. There are still so much I want to say because I want the best for you too. Standing as a friend, I'm afraid you'll fall in to your own weakness again. The weakness you've told me. I hope you read this. I still have things to say to you. As a friend. Sincerely.

Anyway, past few days was awesomely crazy. HA.
This week shall be a week i dedicate to work. TO EARN MONEY.
NEED.MONEY.NEED.MONEY.

OH. I SHALL CUT MY NAILS. HAHAHAHHAHA.

GOOD FRIDAY (soon)

2010-04-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

So coincidentally, this 2nd April is good friday, It's also dad's birthday. I wonder if my mom remembers. I doubt she does. She's too occupied everyday.. Oh well.
I'M WORKING ON GOOD FRIDAY THOUGH. WHICH MEANS DOUBLE PAY. YEAH BABY. teeheehee.

Imma visit dad at mandai after work. Sigh, will be going alone. I predict myself staying there for quite awhile? Shall bring along a book and enjoy some me-time there too. I miss Dad so much so much. I haven't been visiting him for a real long time too. It's just 4 years since he was gone, yet it felt like I haven seen him since young like at least 10 years that kind ): I miss Dad.
BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW GO BY PUBLIC TRANSPORT SIA. -.- nvm shall find a way. Thou shall not cab. SHALL NOT.

Now with ling at her bf's house. OMG LOOOOOOOOONG BUS RIDE HOME LATER. Some more I think there will be no more bus by the time I reach Safra. Have to walk home. I think I will take like 20mins la. Nvm, can enjoy the cooling breeze of the night.

Went school after waking up. Gah. My voice was horrendous. LOL. How do people get hangovers arh? Cause I never get like massive headache after drinking before. I have this theory that if you never drink enough water then will get headache cause your body like lack water due to the alcohol? Is that right? I anyhow one.
I had fun with Zul's DSLR! It's a Sony alpha. 0.o Heavy. V fun to keep snapping people, snap them all being garang guni men/women. I'll get Zul to send me the photos then I post. Sorry arh, I not pro photographer, so all the photos probably all going to turn out like shit. He looks so pro handling the camera la.
I'm surprised that no april's fool prank went around today! I did get a small scare by Zul though, which I don't consider that a prank la, but suddenly now I think back, I realise he walk damn silently. He was following behind me then suddenly give me a tap. NO SOUND AT ALL. either he really can walk very quietly or I'm rather deaf. I think both. -.-

DOUBLE PAY DOUBLE PAY TEEHEEHEE. It's been quite a while since I'm excited about going to work. Maybe cause I really need the money and I just got my pay, see the money inside really shiok. LOL.
Almost did impulse buys just now with ling. Luckily..... We controlled. But i did get my eyeliner though. That one is my essential arh, so yeah. :D My eyeliner finish really fast man. 2 months one stick? 0.o is that fast or normal?
HMMMMMMMMM.

I should go soon hor, to get enough sleep. Soon soon. Hmmmm.

I WENT HOOTERS HAHAHAHAHHA

2010-04-01T12:10:00.001+08:00

I know it's not strange to see girls in Hooters, but I never expect myself to be there. LOL. Thanks to Joshua la! He says the beer there's cheap so we went. I think I very pervertic. LOL. Cause I kept staring. ;x I mean they wear until like that is to be stared at one what! The chio-est girl they used as to be placed in their menu looks so different in real life 0.o
Then Josh says it's like maids working here. LOL. I shan't elaborate further about this point, if you're smart enough you'd know what I'm talking about. I think I have an awesome imagination. LOL.

So anyway, we were supposed to go Zirca/Rebel either one cause they are actually together, but the queue at Zirca was 0.o that's why we went Hooters to chill out first. I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE BEER ANYMORE. Never fails to make me nausea one leh beer. I got phobia from last time going with Calvin that 2 jugs of idk what beer very long ago I think about a year ago? Then I thought I won't puke, but really really it makes me feel so bloated. ahhhh. Not drunk puke is bloated puke.
Oh. We were supposed to go dblo. But, when he drove t the area there, it was quiet like a dead town. HAS DBLO CLOSED DOWN? SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME. I HAVEN BEEN TO DBLO BEFORE LEH! THEN CLOSE LIAO?!?!?

Zirca's queue long max, we went to Rebel, NO QUEUE! Lame! Why people even bother queuing up at Zirca! We even told the door bitch and bouncer that there's a long queue at Zirca and they have no idea why too. BUT THEN! when we went to Zirca through Rebel, EMPTY LEH! -.-
yeah anw, the music was not too bad, just that I realized dj kept spinning remixes. plus I wasn't high. Josh got his standard drink as cranberry/ribena something. idk what the hell's inside cause it just tasted full of the fruit juice. LOL. Always.
Danced halfway and came out for shots. I HATE VODKA ): Then I didn't know he'd order vodka shot. So I took it, burning my lips and stomach and feeling damn disgusted. GAH. Damn idiot, asked me to down the shots while he watched. Like happy only see me whine in disgust about the vodka. Tequila shot next. I like salty things so the salt around the shot glass makes me happy. -.- I finished the shot and continue licking the edge of the shot glass for the salt. HHAHAHA. ;x

Anyway we left pretty early like 2+, 3? cause I didn't really feel like dancing already anw. Not exactly in the mood too plus I woke up at 5am. -.- OH and they started playing trance music. GAH!

Went to chill off at outside and I kept wanting to puke. Yes Josh, now I know what you mean by beer + hard liquor is sure die one. damn sick la the feeling. So I managed to shake off the feeling after what 1 hr. OMG. And we were both freaking sleepy omg. And he has to go to school ltr, luckily his school is having some carnival shit if not how is he gg to teach sia. So I reached home, plonked on the bed and zonked out.

Thanks dude for attempting to cheer me up and attempting to make me happy and all. haha. I know a bit fail cause when I don't like the music I just stand there in the dance floor and stone. HAHAHA. and you actually imitated me. Thanks for the night (:

Meeting ling later aft her work. wheeee. haven't seen her in months ); SINCE BEFORE HER BIRTHDAY LOR. ):

Meow

2010-03-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

so many things happening at the same time omg. within all my friends that is. not that my life is nt dramatic and hilarious enough. lol.

I ACCEPT LIAO.
SHALL I GO TMR OMG. TEMPTING MUCH.

I haven go very long le lor.

OH YEAH. MY PAY COMING IN IN 15MINS MWAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.

CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE SOBER

2010-03-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

So awesome i keep finding songs nowadays that describes my mood. 0.o
no appetite sia. Haven eaten anything since ytd's dinner at 830? It's been freaking 24hrs. and to think i loved food so bloody much. Used to be so greedy together with cheryl, keep wanting to order a lot or buy a lot of food to eat. HAHAHAHA.

Hmmm. as i lost my h_ _ _ _, i lost some other things too. example my appetite and my s_ _ _. LOL. hangman for you guys!

失忆 - 张韶涵

下雨后还给蓝天冷静了
在分手后不算亏欠
跌跌撞撞的缠绵
认认真真地实现
这样谁不流泪
就当做最后亲吻吧
是否在这瞬间
中不算真话
热热烈烈的～
冷冷淡淡地承受
我算是残忍的吗

我如何假装
我心里不再有你
沉溺后清醒你却异常地平静
习惯慢慢适应
因为这样就能转移自己

我发现我我爱你
就在这一瞬间
倾盆而下的诠释
你不安的阴天
毕竟我都看开
我并不想害自己

就当做最后亲吻吧
是否在这瞬间
中不算真话
热热烈烈的～
冷冷淡淡地承受
我算是残忍的吗

我如何假装
我心里不再有你
沉溺后清醒你却异常地平静
习惯慢慢适应
因为这样就能转移自己
我发现我我爱你
就在这一瞬间
倾盆而下的诠释
你不安的阴天
毕竟我都看开
我并不想害自己
哦不想害自己

我已经失去你
再没有你爱我的那一天
我如何珍重自己

我发现我我爱你
就在这一瞬间
沉溺后清醒你却异常地平静
习惯慢慢适应
因为这样就能转移自己

我发现我我爱你
就在这一瞬间
倾盆而下的诠释
你不安的阴天

毕竟我都看开
我并不想害自己

If i could explain it in a remix of songs

2010-03-28T14:54:00.000+08:00

现在的我捆在迷宫里，因为你突然累了。

真爱不是一加一等于二那么简单。

我好想他，好爱他。。

你记得吗？

迷宫

究竟你想什么
但眼泪骗不了我
如果是命定恋人
为何还要对我
如此这样残忍

记得你曾说过
有个爱情迷宫
只要我们能够碰头
就能天长地久
如果真的爱我
就别管怎么传说
让自尊它无情捉弄
关什么永恒不永恒

我不要自己一个人
去面对未知的迷宫
眼看着幸福就在前头
却无法到手
不要自己一个人
无助的盲目去摸索
爱你我像个小偷

终于有了选择
我不是你的晴空
你的心不爱我
只能继续委屈
做她的替代品
记得你曾说过
有个爱情迷宫
只要我们能够碰头
就能天长地久
如果真的爱我
就别管怎么传说
! 让自尊它无情捉弄
关什么永恒不永恒
我不要自己一个人
去面对未知的迷宫
眼看着幸福就在前头
却无法到手
不要自己一个人
无助的盲目去摸索
爱你我像个小偷

我不要自己一个人
去面对未知的迷宫
眼看着幸福就在前头
却无法到手
不要自己一个人
无助的盲目去摸索
我可以装做不懂
你不爱我

突然累了

吃饭吃到睡了
我开车开到傻了
我看书看到你了
开始怀疑我怎么了
说话说到吐了
我写歌写到疯了
我爱你爱到盲了
天知道我又怎么了
不舍得舍不得都分手了
舍不得不舍得散了
爱是你的我是我的完了
原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我不爱了
哒啦......

'HORNYMOON'

2010-03-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

HAHAHHAHA. JOKE OF THE DAY BETWEEN GINA AND ME.

laugh ttm abt it. fucking retarded la. from my house laugh laugh laugh until orchard still laughing, then going home the word pop out again, we laughed again. siao eh.

anw i think i'm out of YOG! whoo! should i join ndp?
i feel like giving tuition. i should teach chinese right.. my chinese power from pri sch all th way to sec sch, just tt my higher chinese in sec sch is chui one la, but nvm stfu abt tt, my express chinese still quite zai leh. A1 distinction ok! teeheehee.

to give or not to give? hmmmm.

ANYTHING LA.

2010-03-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

seriously, it's damn ridiculous. but i got nothing to say already. I don't want to be dealing with it cause i'll feel that i'm dealing with kids. -.- name so many conditions and act until so hiong say so much blah blah blah, in the end what you're saying and what you're doing is the exact opposite. -.-

i'm not pissed or what, just feeling that it's so ridiculous. in fact i feel like laughing. LOL. it's amusing, seeing things developing.

anw had dinner with momsie yesterday and headed back home.
i am so happy my period is here cause it means OLTC i will be spared from all the troubles. mwahaha. i'm going to be soooooo super busy these 3 weeks. ):

tue: work later at 2pm at CA,
wed: YOG meeting in school + revision for bpharm
thurs: work from 4 - 1130pm
fri: work from 1 - 6pm
sat: work from 830 - 5pm
sun: work from 3 - 11pm

following week i have to take a supp paper for bpharm ):
mon: OLTC
tue: OLTC
wed: OLTC
thurs: OLTC
fri: i put in schedule for work alr!
sat: i also put in schedule for work!

OHOHOHOH. FOLLOWING WEEK AFTER OLTC IS END OF THE MONTH. WHICH MEANS?

PAY DAY!!!!

I WANT TO ZHNG MY PHONE. stupid 2nd hand phone's cover is chui ttm. so i have to go buy crystals and glue. ahhhhhhh.

there's something else i wanna do with my pay but i can't rmb what is it. oh well...

BUT I WANT MY PAY. WHEEEEEEEEEE.

I just can't.

2010-03-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

there're a lot of things i would like to tell you, but i'm sorry i can't. much as i would like to, much as i would like to share this with another of closely related personnel, i can't. Because i have too much to consider. I don't even know why I bother to cover up. I don't even know why I bother to keep it hidden.

I'm just glad that I came into any of your minds. That makes me happy already. At this point of time, i just feel like crying for missing out so much. And I cannot describe how much I miss all of you. It was like an annual COMPULSORY event for me, that's why I'm so affected by it. sigh.

It's like filling up my bottle to the brim and still continuing to fill it in hope that it won't spill. I think there's still space. So yeah, it's not going to overflow. YET.

KNNCCB I LOST MY PHONE AGAIN

2010-03-10T10:04:00.001+08:00

YES I KNOW. AGAIN. seems like i keep losing things nowadays right. -.- first my wallet now my phone. argh.
and this is the second time i lost my phone at heeren, while working. that place has a curse against me or something -.-
THIS IS LIKE MY 2ND PHONE WITHIN 8MTHS? around there i guess. ): and i liked this phone so much la.

i feel bad enough already, so stop preaching and scolding me. i hate hate hate hate it when i lose my phones, i feel damn upset. so yeah probably all those who hates me right now are rejoicing for my lost. URGH.

WHAT'S UP WITH SCOLDINGS AND PREACHING WHEN I FEEL SORE AND UPSET ALREADY?
COME ON! I LOST MY PHONE! I FEEL SIAN ENOUGH! HAVE SOME SYMPATHY!

anyway the main point of why i'm so upset it's cause of the lost of all my contacts and very importantly, all my schedules in my phone. URGH.

oh yeah, i haven't mentioned how i lost it. i went to the toilet and left it in the ledge at the back of the cubicle and forgot about it. i went back 5mins later and it's not there anymore. so it must have been a bitch who took it.
so yeah obviously i tried calling, it was nothing. no ringing tone, no service provider saying 'this customer is currently unavailable...', JUST DIAL TONE. someone tell me what is it supposed to mean. even if i shut off phone also will have service provider saying something right! so what does the freaking dial tone mean?!
AND FUCK YOU BITCH FOR OFFING MY PHONE IF THAT IS WHAT YOU DID.

whenever i pick up phones i always wait at least 24-48 hrs one lor, leaving the phone on and wait for owner to call. not like you who took my phone don't have your own phone right. knn.

chinese horoscope says sheeps are 2nd luckiest this chinese calendar year.
LUCKY? MY ASS.
then again i might be gaining something out of this. LOL. must lose to gain righttttt. :P
daydreaming much.

NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT PHONE.
buy new one?
repair old one, buy charger and buy usb cable?
buy back same phone? LOL
buy some cmi phone?
i have a sim card though, prepaid sim card la. but i can't remember the number. when i remember i will post it through fb and guys please be nice and sms me your numbers ok!

sigh...
cheryl said i shouted v loudly in my dreams last night, "AH SHIT LA" HAHAHAHAHHAAHA. about my phone? maybe...

_|_

2010-03-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

some guys are really damn _|_
act until so nice when you want to get th girl for another purpose.
don't take advantage of her innocence/naive-ness leh.

_|_

DISCLAIMER: i nv say all guys arh. SOME. don't anyhow come flame me.

A few random POST-EXAMS!

2010-03-02T13:13:00.000+08:00

so what's the first thing i did after exams? hmmmm.
SHOPPING! ok la nt really shopping cause i alr had what i want in mind, just went t get it. then, roamed ard before heading to wait for dear. -.- end up i wait like 1.5 hrs? and he cannot come out. whatttt. got pissed HAHAHAHA and cabbed home. some more kena cab snatch.damn angry. i wait cab half hr tt idiot came and stand right in front of me and flagged for th cab i flagged. wtf?!
i went right up to the cab door there alr and wanted t scold him alr, but i was too tired to get into a fight, i just let it go.-.- then MORE PEOPLE COME STAND IN FROM OF ME.wtfknnccb. -.- i was thinking if some more ppl snatch confirm i will scold alr. mwahahha lucky nv.:D

so i went home and finally someone managed to get out and we went for a movie tt's screening at 150am. LOL. i think i somehow forced him t go cause i refuse t be doing nth aft exams. LOLLLL.

stone.

say my hair looks awesome here.

attempt to boost his ego by taking a pic of his hair and saying it's nice. LOL.

thank you nice hair.

so reached home at 4? LOL. and slept till 8 and went out again th nxt day morning. went ktv w cheryl, th 3 of us like damn tired so nt high in ktv, but songs tt jor sings makes cheryl laugh like mad. she recorded 2 i think. HAHAHAHA.
i think cheryl got kinda weird, cause she suddenly wore shades inside th room. so dark la wth wear shades, so i also follow. i took out my shades and wore too. LOL. and i felt blind. -.-

see so dark cnt even see us. LOL.

aft ktv, went for dinner in town and went to vivo and powerhouse. and th crowd was 0.o first time so many people. only 11 only like everywhere is ppl alr. really is packed until i walk only i start sweating from being towered by so many ppl. actually sausage fest more like it.

i had enough. ;\

IMMA GO DENTAL NOW AND I CAN SEE DINGDING.
WAH LAU IS CLASS CHALET CONFIRMED NT. GRRRR.

SO AWESOME

2010-02-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

have you guys seen this vid? the music video of shakira's did it again.
watch the 'bed scene'. i think it's modern/contemporary dance technique and it's absolutely amazing.

the choreography, the dance moves, the synchronization btw shakira and the male dancer.
DAMN AWESOME LA. i swear guys will be jealous at th male dancer. and yeah females would be jealous of shakira in this vid for the way she dances. BECAUSE I AM JEALOUS. lol.

watch it!

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.

2010-02-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

I AM HOME NOW. ON A FRIDAY NIGHT.
AFTER FINISHING MY PAPER.
CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE IT. -.-

update update:
i should be gg out soon. i think? i guess?
and someone. SOMEONE. loves to scam me. -.-