CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012

I think I received quite an amount of angbao this year. Gonna bank them in on Tues. So... here are the CNY's pic. Not much because as usual, I'm not a very take-picture-everywhere kinda person.

So anyway, as usual every CNY Day 1 I will go to my father's side with my brothers. Since my father is no longer around, I go with them alone. Ever since my father passed away actually.

 My 2nd elder brother.

 the one in red is my eldest brother. or rather. our eldest brother. lol. Is there actually any resemblance? Or the age gap too big cannot see anymore?

while waiting for my mother to pick me up cause I lost my way -.- I THINK I LOOK QUITE PRETTY THIS CNY LEH! HAHAHAHAHAA. A lot of compliments this year leh, as compared to previous years. Maybe I become more chio hor? HAHAHAHAHA.

So anyway, CNY visiting usually lasts a few days for me in previous years, but I did my last visiting only like 2 days back. which is the 12th day. Happening ah.

Wenr my nephew (my eldest brother's eldest son), Andrew's house. Brought bf along and we played 21 there. Their daughter is just adorable. SUPER CUTE.

my Da Sao, Andrew's daughter, Claire and my brother. This is the first time I see my brother smile in photos. LOL. He's quite a cool guy for his age (50+) but he doesn't smile much. 

I can't remember which day was that but that week's friday we went my Eldest brother's house. Another house party. Played mahjong, 21 and drank quite some bit of beer. lol. I think I grew to like beer because of the two days of drinking beer. 

And because of that, I decided to go drink w Gina. Since she's probably very trained from drinking in Aussie alr.

we got ourselves a tower! Can you believe it we finished a tower. 2 girls at some really uncle place with people singing ktv songs in a very horrible way in the background. Kenrick intro-ed me that place and I decided we just needed beer and to chill so we went there. I do know that it's quite an uncle place from the start, but the singings there that day was just terrible. really bad.

Went to my guardian's place for the last visiting on the 12th day, a friday. So I stayed there till the bf came over to fetch me. I was dressed in black despite it being a CNY visit, but I thought that it's not the first 3 days anymore, I didn't really bother about the color anymore.

yeah tt was my outfit. and yes, tt's my guardian's house. HAHA. Like extremely narcissistic like that, go people's house use their mirror to take photo of myself. OH WELL?! 

Finally got Gina to meet the bf and we just had an awesome time together. I know it's not very CNY-ish but it happened during CNY so yeah. We were just chilling, having wine. 2 bottles of wine in 1 hr plus. Super super high. It was damn fun and we're gonna do it again this sat! YAY! Can't wait.

Driving lesson tmr! 

I haven't gotten the ftt book because Gina forgot to bring it out tt ytd. My instructor is going to say me. I know nothing and he kept asking questions I just guessed. LOL. I felt damn retarded seriously.

Abrupt ending cause I ran out of things to say. bye.

LOADING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO VERY SLOWLY. ):

I haven't been touching my laptop for many days. Except for yesterday when I blogged. Ever since I started Uni, the laptop became a tool for assignments much more than entertainment. Although I still download (GASP!! SOPA SHIT STARTS FORMING IN MY HEAD AT THE MENTION OF THE WORD 'DOWNLOAD') shows or songs once in a while, my laptop is pretty much a work tool more than anything else.

I guess I just associate work with laptop so it's not as appealing anymore to even on it. I do, however, realize that I use the computer much more at the bf''s. That's basically weekends. I guess not my laptop that's why I don't associate to work? I don't know, maybe it's just me. Since the start of study period, before exams, the laptop became pretty useless. Literally. It's just left there lying ON THE FLOOR, 3/4 hidden under my bed.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
No idea why I decided to put it under the bed and at the spot where if I get off the bed, my feet will be stepping on. That to say, I've stepped on my laptop several times, especially in the middle of the night in the past 3 weeks or so. :x


So since now I'm not working and it's HOLIDAY for me, I've resumed the laptop to it's rightful and appropriate position, on the table. hehe. So it's messing ard with the webcam. I pretty much use it as a mirror when I need to check out that zit on my face and I'm lazy to take 4 steps to the toilet. I think I'm going to grow fat. Maybe a butt bigger than it already is. Maybe I have a big butt because I sit down too much. Hor?

 plus my snacking... YEP. DEFINITELY GOING TO BECOME FATTER....

BF!!! DO YOU STILL WANT ME??!

Now it's time for me to catch up on my shows! Fringe S4 and The Vampire Diaries S3. Had to download a few eps at one go because I haven't been tracking when each ep is being released. I'm fine with downloading but when I download a few eps at a time, I expect the older ep to be done downloading than the newer ones! Makes sense right? If the new eps are done downloading, I can't watch anyway because I won't be able to catch up with the story. And that is exactly what is happening right now. TVD's ep12 is done, but 11 is not and it's BEEN ONE WHOLE DAY. I've been waiting and waiting checking every few hours, BUT WHY SO SLOW?! The rest of the eps including Fringe's eps are done and I'm even done watching Fringe. -.- SO DAMN SLOW. TSK.

Every few hrs I look it tells me ETA 1hr.

ok 10min to go! DAMON SALVATORE HERE I COME!!!!!!

I AM LAZY.

So exams are finally over. I'm a bit slow to announce since it was over the week before CNY, but yeah CNY's been pretty busy for me this year. In fact, this is the busiest CNY I've ever had.

Sad to say, I have yet to get my driver's license -.- I've been telling myself to get my license by 'next year's' CNY every year since I hit 18. AND GUESS WHAT? I'M TURNING 21 SOON (in June) AND I'VE YET TO START LEARNING! OH MY GAWD. I AM A PROCRASTINATOR. z z z.

BUT!!! I HAVE PASSED MY BTT, just this year sadly and I am currently starting practical lessons soon. Just that, I haven texted the instructor yet (I have an instructor's number already). MORE PROCRASTINATION. I'm going to do it tomorrow. I SWEAR. It's too late to text an instructor now anyway. I don't feel good texting teachers / instructors of any kind after the sun sets. I always think they need to get away from their work and enjoy their personal time after the sun sets. So yeap, I'm going to do it tomorrow.

So anyway, since exams are over, I have about a month's time of holiday before the next semester starts, I am expected to work. My boyfriend expects and wants me to work. My mother expects and wants me to work. I expect and wanted myself to work....

ON SECOND THOUGHTS, I'm hesitating. You can say I'm lazy, maybe I'm really lazy, BUT IT'S MY HOLIDAY! WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING ENJOY MY SHORT 1 MONTH HOLIDAY?! Sure you might say all you working adults have no holidays also not tired yada yada blahlahleedah. I'm going to work FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AFTER GRADUATION, WHY  WORK NOW?! WHY CAN'T I ENJOY MY HOLIDAY WHILE I STILL HAVE IT?

I know working will earn me some extra bucks, but a few hundred dollars, probably near 200 not very significant leh. Even though the boyfriend and I are saving for our bkk trip at the end of the year, I still don't feel like working! I just want to enjoy my holiday, even if I laze around, grow fat, grow a tummy, become a couch potato, when my sem starts, I AM ONE HARDWORKING GIRL AGAIN!
Mind you, when I say hardworking, I'm really very hardworking. I study almost all the time except weekends, I try not to leave assignments till the night before it's due etc. I become a nerd basically. If I'm working hard during school term, shouldn't I enjoy during my break? IT'S CALLED A BREAK / HOLIDAY FOR A REASON!!! You ENJOY, you RELAX, you REST YOUR MIND (& SOUL) during a HOLIFUCKINGDAY.

YOU DO NOT GO TO WORK.

For adults, they have off-days or leaves to take. Then, why not during your off day or leave you don't go on a holiday or break and WORK instead? NO ONE DOES THAT RIGHT? Likewise for schooling people! At least for me! I WANT TO RELAX AND ENJOY MY HOLIDAY! 

Like I said earlier on, I'M GOING TO WORK FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AFTER GRADUATION, I should enjoy while I still can. 

I REPEAT: WORK FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

I read this article not too long ago about the Top 10 regrets people have just before they die as reported by a nurse who works with dying patients, mostly really old people. I think quite some people read it before, there was a link to it floating around twitter and facebook. Most of the regrets were people working too hard, didn't enjoy life enough, didn't slow down to enjoy the small bits of lives, or spend enough time with their loved ones. 

Okay... the last one don't really apply to me because anyway there's no one at home during the day and my boyfriend's in camp. 

BUT STILL, ENJOY WHILE I STILL CAN! My holiday is only ONE MONTH. If it's 3 months I must agree I do need to work, but it's only 4 weeks before I start working real hard again.

Of course I'm not going to grow fat, be a couch potato literally. I'll still head to the gym (maybe) or swim and head out of course. 

That's it. I think I'm not going to work. 

and I'm going to prepare myself for a whole lot of nagging. 

Yes. Nagging.

ON A SIDE  NOTE, I CAN'T PLAY THE SIMS! Mine is still THE SIMS2, because I have no money to purchase The Sims3 and I will not do so because I think it's a waste of money to buy games. The Sims2 was given to me by a friend so yeah.

Sigh why?!?!?! It keeps giving me some error message, I can't read it cause it's in thai, I tried to change the language but I can't because I can't find the EA Games folder in Regedit. OMG WHY?! It's done installing, I've installed the patch too and when I open the game up, even if it's in thai I should be able to play, but I can't! The page after all the loading pages is blank. There's no neighbourhood for me to select to start. So I CAN'T START. -.-

LE SIGH.

Someone help. PLEASE!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! or not.

So what if it's a new year? It's just another day!! Just that it starts with 01 01, doesn't mean everything becomes perfect from then on.

Life goes on. People still die, the shit goes on the good goes on. Nothing stops for time.

So anyway, I'm not excited about the new year.

I AM NOW HOWEVER, PISSED WITH MY FAMILY.
I WANNA GET OUT. ASAP.

I'M KIASU. I BET YOU ARE TOO.

One of the many many many things I hate is my pen running out of ink while I'm writing. So disgusting! Write halfway then the ink fades off like act cool gradient shit. THAT'S NOT COOL, PEN! It annoys the crap out of me, especially when I don't have that color of pen with me and if I borrow someone else's pen, the ink the thickness of th ballpoint will be different! Everything will look out of place. and that, ANNOYS ME, BIG TIME.

see the white circle, where the ink fades off. SO ANNOYING! 

red circle, where I'm still in denial and believes my pen will still serve me -.-

It was stats lesson, I didn't want to miss out, so I forced myself to use the black pen I have with me. It was an eyesore to use and I hated it because the rest of my answers are in blue, only diagrams and other special areas I use black. Yes, I am that anal about the color of my pen being used for which section, which area of my own notes. EXTREMELY PARTICULAR. If I use the wrong color, I'll be in a foul mood. Lol. I know I sound a bit too extreme BUT I REALLY DON'T LIKE! Makes everything not the same anymore!!! ):

Apparently the school bookshop doesn't sell my pen's ink refill or my pen itself. It's the pilot acroball medium tip one. It is DAMN SMOOTH. I had to borrow my friend's pen for th lecture afterwards because

BLACK IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE USED FOR NOTES.

And.....

I DIDN'T LIKE IT! I appreciate the fact that he even lend me his pen because he was using pencil and black pen. I felt terrible that he's using black pen, he probably doesnt care what color are his writings in lecture notes but I feel for him k. 

I didn't like his pen cause it wasn't smooth enough and the tip damn thin. Makes my writings look so sparse, thin and pathetic. Those who like 0.7 / medim tip ballpoint pens will understand my feelings, but what can I do? I'm making the best out of it because I would really hate to see my writings in black when I revise my notes. So I rather 先苦后甜 (I know not that serious but, I'M PARTICULAR LIKE THAT)

So anyway, no more pen, school don't sell my pen, I went to get it after school. I couldn't remember if AMK Hub has popular, so I walked the whole mall -.- Apparently there isn't so I went to Fairprice opposite my house to get one pen. ONE PEN. I wanted to get just one pen to last till I get th pen I really wanted. 

One big round and that brings me to the title of this post. I wanted to buy ONE pen but look what I ended up with...... 

5 pens and a facial cleanser. ;x It was supposed to be a trip to Fairprice that would cost me only I think $1.50, but it became $22.00 HAHAHAHAHHA.

Am I kiasu or what?! I actually laughed to and at myself after paying. WHY I SO RIDICULOUS? LOL. ONE pen became FIVE. -.-

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I think her logic's gone. Her son wanted to say bye / goodnight to me and give me a hug when going to bed and he was already at my door about to turn the door knob already (as I heard), she actually said "no need, no need" in a very frustrated voice. She knows there's nothing wrong in what the son wanted to do, but she didn't want her son to do that because of her relationship with me this one month. She's lucky the son still young cannot fight back ask why. I assumed she pulled her son away from my door immediately because I saw the shadows disappear under my door immediately after she said 'no need'.

WAY TO GO IN CULTIVATING AND NURTURING GOOD MANNERS AND HABITS. 2x thumbs up. 

Even I know nothing to do with her son, I still play with him and entertain him. 

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Anyway, I need to share my current obsession, but I know it's a very temporary one. Yeah, my penguin. HHAHAHAHHAHAA.

 ok I'm done. 

No more photos of penguin. I promise. AHAHAHAHHA.

BUT ADMIT IT. THE LAST ONE DAMN CUTE PLS!

HAPPY FEET!!

Little Eric is sooooooooo cute. If only he's real. I want to have him! So fluffy, the voice so adorable too!
And guess what I bought the Happy feet combo for the movie. It was damn shit load of things. 2 packs of small twisties, 1 mini ice-cream, 1 large popcorn and 1 large drink. Lavone and I had difficulty carrying everything. hahahahaha.

Waiting for her to upload the photos so I can kope. Meanwhile....

OKAY BYEBYE.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT A DOG.

I used to have a dog as some people do know. No wait, I used to have 2 dogs. One was given to me by my cousin cause he could no longer take care of it or his then gf couldn't take care of it anymore.



that's dingding

and this is furby. I have no idea why is the photo so small. I retrieved it from the album I have in photobucket.

I dreamt about owning a dog once again last night. On average, I'll dream of having my dog mostly Dingding back with me about 3-4x a month. I really miss having a dog.

I remember always pretending that I'm walking my dog when I was younger. I'd walk around my neighbourhood w my hand behind me as though I was holding on the the leash and my dog was behind me. I'd even talk to the imaginery dog I have. Oh, and the dreams started ever since I have episodic memory. That's like when I was 4 years old? The dreams stopped briefly during the period when I had dogs. P5 - Sec 1 or 2. Then Sec 4 - Poly yr 1.5. They were always taken away from me without my prior knowledge or permission.

The very first time Snobby (my very first dog) was taken away, it was understandable cause my Dad went through operation and my family was afraid that the dog would cause infection to his wound. I understand that situation so I cried, but didn't make a fuss out of it at all.

When I got Dingding, I was super in love with him. He was such a dear! He would always follow me around the house, even if I went to the shower, he'd wait inside the bathroom, outside the shower door for me. I know it sounds weird that he's looking at me shower, BUT HE'S A DOG OK. DONT JUDGE. I'M SURE MANY PEOPLE DO IT AS WELL. And anyway if I don't let him into the bathroom with me, he'd whimper and scratch the door until I came out. SO POOR THING RIGHT?! HOW WILL YOU BEAR TO LEAVE HIM AT THE DOOR?!
Sis didn't like him very much, because he belongs to me. Anything that belongs to me, associated with me, came from me, it's inferior to her. Everything about her is superior and now that I think back, my pet as well. WTF SERIOUSLY.

So anyway, when my cousin came with his dog, an over-sized shih tzu, I liked it initially until it started bullying my Dingding just because it's bigger than him. I was so angry okay. He'd bite Dingding and push him out of his path and all sorts of things you thought only humans (especially girls) do to each other. Including attention seeking. It's almost watching bitch fight LITERALLY except that they were both males.
and guess what? My sister loved him. I bet it's because he's of the same kind as her. A BULLY. She's laugh at the way he bullies Dingding and mock Dingding for being bullied. WTF?! I swear she's psychotic anw. Honestly. Whenever Furby does something wrong, she blames it all on Dingding. Furby pee-ed on the sofa she insists it's Dingding. Dingding will never do something like that. It's not that I'm biased but through 1 year plus, there has been NO incidences of pee on the sofa until Furby came along. AND I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES HE PEE-ED ON THE FREAKING SOFA. So i defended Dingding and she insists that it's Dingding's pee. -.-
Furby is stronger, size wise and 'taller' if u kn what I mean like when he stands on his hind legs. He'd go to the rubbish bin, the step-and-the-lid-opens kind of bin we have in our home and step on the step w his front paw and put his head into the rubbish bin. THEN... HE'D DIG OUT FOOD / WHATEVER NONSENSE INSIDE IT OUT. I saw it with my own eyes as well, my sister saw it together with me as well. GUESS WHAT? SHE DIDN'T SCOLD! She thinks it's cute and go goo-goo-ga-ga all over Furby and 'scolded' him in a way I think he probably thought she was playing with him.
SO WHAT'S MY POINT?!

She is always right.
Whatever is hers (she claims Furby t be so cute and she likes it so much so it's 'hers' then), whatever is associated with her is THE BEST.
SHE IS SUPERIOR ABOVE ALL. At this point I'd make the sound of angel rising halo and sorts of sound if u know what I'm talking about. That open ur mouth and you just go ooooooaahhhhhhhhhh~ in a v holy-ish tone. If this is irl and I'm speaking all these words out, that sound will just appear from nowhere as though in a show.

I KNOW I DIGRESSED.

So anyway, I really want a dog.
I WILL HAVE ONE WHEN I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN LIFE.
I hope my other half will agree w my love for dogs.

I REALLY WANT A DOG ): I MISS DINGDING SO MUCH NOWADAYS...

): ): ):

DON'T PATRONIZE ME!!!

Do you patronize people just so they feel less awkward / that you won't look like a dick / bitch?

I try not to. I mean well, sometimes it really can't be helped and sometimes I'm just not in the mood to be nice. I don't do it to people because it's actually pretty obvious when you're preoccupied with something yet you don't want to make someone feel awkward or that make yourself look bad. The body language, the tone of voice, the kind of replies.

IT'S SO BLOODY OBVIOUS.

If you're busy just say so! and apologise after that of course. You don't want to come off as rude. So anyway, my point is DON'T PATRONIZE ME! If you're busy tell me, if you need to go off, tell me. I'll appreciate it rather than being patronized and knowing that you think I don't know, but actually I do know.
Do I make sense? uhhh. Maybe you don't get it. Never mind.

ACTUALLY I HAVE NO IDEA WHY AM I HERE!

I guess...


I'M REALLY BORED AND I MISS TYPING. I love typing and seeing the words appear on the computer screen. Especially if I type really fast and I see th letters appear one after another. Do anyone else have this weird liking? Am I weird? Is it weird?!

Did I ever mention before that I like to watch the washing machine spin the clothes as well? I remember standing beside the washing machine while it fills the tub of clothes with water and starts spinning them. The fun part comes when the bubble starts appearing. I have no idea why I'm so mesmerized by the washing machine. My longest record was standing there just watching it spin for up to half hour or so. HEHEHE.

OH I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO FIND OUT:
What does it mean when you dream about your teeth falling out? I've dreamt about my teeth falling out multiple times. It's not all at once, but in my dream my teeth are all like loose and shaky, like how they'd be like when your milk tooth is about to fall out, except that in the dream it's the permanent teeth already. It's quite horrific actually because I can push it with my tongue and it falls out after awhile!
WHY?!

WHAT'S THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THIS DREAM?

If anyone knows pray tell.
Then again, I'll google for it.

"TEETH-FALLIGNG-OUT-DREAM"



KTHXBYE. (:

TIME PLEASE BE FASTER

Sometimes, I want time to pass really fast. Or rather, most of the time. I just want to lead my own life. It's not that I don't love them, but I'm feel suffocated, restricted and I'm never appreciated so what's the point.

I was much better off alone.
I know it cause I've already lived alone once. Guess what? I LOVED IT.

I get to do things on my own time, I enjoy doing the laundry, the cleaning even. At least I don't get ordered around like a maid.

I just want to move on and start my life. I don't know exactly what has gone wrong at home that makes me this way, but I do know it's one person's doing. Her way of life has disrupted mine or ours totally. It's almost impossible to live with her.


ARGH.

I want to move on. With you (:

OVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!

Everytime before my exam ends I get so excited for the after-exams. THEN THE EXAMS END AND I DON'T FEEL MUCH ANYMORE. WHYYYYYYYYYYY. Anticipate too much I guess.

I REALISE THERE'S NO DIFFERENCE. I STILL HAVE TO STAY AT HOME. Cannot always go out -.- because blah blah blah worked so hard to provide me a good home blah blah blah. YES I GET IT BUT I EVERYDAY STAY AT HOME DO WHAT?! Also no one at home!

I stay home weekdays then weekends I want go out cannot meh. I'M FREAKING 20 OMG. If I'm still being controlled like that when I'm 21 I really don't know what to say.

Anyway, I studied for Anthropology the whole bloody week. Like literally took the whole week to study for Anthro and kinda neglected the rest of my modules. But! I think it was the right thing to do though. I would say my weakest would be Anthro because I attended only the first 5 lectures? Plus I think it has so much more memorizing work to do and it is OH-SO-DRY. I don't really get the notes anyway!

The lecturer reads from the slides. LITERALLY. WORD FOR WORD. Then shows about an hour of video. -.-

Anthro paper was on Monday night 7pm - 9pm. I reached home at 10plus and after a very late dinner, I showered and knocked out. I wanted to study through the night but I really couldn't take it. Woke up at 8am t study till 12pm. Flipped through all the Sociology lecture notes, did a bit of  serious reading for the first chapter only. Must remember all the theories like Functionalism, Conflict Theory, Post-modernism, Feminism and Globalization. I think I didn't give like exact theories and I'm surprised I actually have nonsense to write for the long essay.

IT IS INSANE THAT THE LONG ESSAY QNS IS 40MARKS AND JUST SMACK ONE QNS. NO BREAKDOWNS LIKE 1a, 1b kind of questions. For both Anthro and Soci. Insane.

100 MCQS FOR PSY 1 PAPER! Flipped through in the morning too. -.-

Let's hope I don't fail. My participation mark for tutorial wasa 44/80. That's for missing 3 tutorials out of 8! Damn.

I'll start trimester 2 right I promise. RAR.

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I can't stay over ): I'm so sad. I had a hard time persuading my mother and I have yet to settle my sister. It's so unfair with regards to the things she was doing at my age then and now I'm treated like a 10yrs old more than 20. ARGH.

Her bf then was already staying with us then now guys cannot even enter my room. EVEN WITH THE DOOR OPEN. WHAT NONSENSE SIA.

Should I like make my stand and don't care? ARGH.